christmas is the perfect time to fine tune your new year's resolutions. its fucking disgusting, but yes, i'm afraid we'd have to admit that 2008 is coming to an end. i'm fucking getting another year older. grrr..
i discovered, with great shock, the other evening, over dinner with gw, the actual reason behind my persistent procrastination to look for a job. i know, i graduated in may. fucking may. and i'm still stuck (i stick myself to it, really) where i am. working relatively long hours, and earning minimal wage. it really boils down to my contemptible fear for being independent.
its like, stepping into the corporate world, being an employed adult, holding a job with an actual position and real career prospects, all these. its like i'm taking an irrevocable step into the world of boring adulthood.
i dont want my conversations to revolve around financial situations, saving plans. i'm not afraid of the responsibilities, i'm not afraid of the stress, or of the workload. i just dont want to morph into that typical shenton way lunchtime work crowd. i dont want to blend into the canvas of the economy just like that.
and its fucking scary, because every day brings me one step closer to that boring picture.
my number one new year resolution this year, is to enjoy everything while it lasts. savour the remaining days of my almost-defunct-adolescent. fuck la. a-sai. i'm fucking 22 years old. -_-"
yes, i'm fucking 22 years old, and i still occasionally lie to my parents about coming home late. my number two resolution is to lie as little as i possibly can. the truth hurts. but i've had enough of lying, and making up more lies to cover up for the original lie. i'm almost like this compulsive liar now, lying about the most nondescript occurrence to the most trivial characters in the storyboard of my life.
i lied to the borders cashier that i wasn't interested in applying for the membership privileges. and that was the day i spent like $150 on fucking books. and i have this like monthly pilgrimage trip to bookstore. fuck. the number 3 resolution is that i'm going to keep a physical, hard-copy diary. and i'm going to fucking write every-fucking-day. even if its a one liner. i'm going to fucking write.
and its high time i started an offline journal. i'm venomous. my words seem to spread poison further than i think. its fucking ridiculous, but hell yea.
of course the usual apply. that i shall be as happy as i possibly can, and satisfied with whatever i have. that i should think less, and not let the future, which has not happened yet hinder my enjoyment of the present.
oh. and i need to sleep earlier, sleep more, sleep my eye bags away. i'd better start practising.
nights! ^^
Friday, December 26, 2008
Sunday, December 21, 2008
random #26
omg.. i totally just bombed the toilet big time. ah ying's half-cooked otahs were honestly the answer to my prayers from my previously constipated days.
i know, i was supposed to blog back then, about the flowers and my "status update". but really, things ended before i even had the chance to do so. well, people who should know, knew, and those who didnt, too bad. i guess, i really have no idea what i want, do i?
gw has been super nice about the whole thing, and he could have potentially been my bestest bf, beating ray by a landslide (and tts saying alot, mind you), if only, if only, if only.
to make the long story short, i asked for the flowers. he delivered. i happily accepted. and then i got scared. i realized i wasnt ready. i realized the last occupant has not moved out of, what i thought was, my vacant heart. my fault, totally. and i should just be glad that he's still on talking terms with me now.
dont ask me what i want, i dont know. or maybe i do, i just refuse to come to terms with them.
things are much too complicated for me to just say what i want to say, and hence the severe lack of updates these days. much also has to do with the fact that i miss my laptop terribly. she seem to have taken a part of me with her. i refuse to send her for servicing. shall make a few more attempts at resurrecting her.
i'm fucking depressed now staring at my greatly-missed-lappie. :(
i miss him too. and it sucks, because enough is never really enough. kk thinks it wont be too long before i make up my mind. he seems to already know my choice though.
blah. till when my lappie recovers, and i have pictures to post.
i know, i was supposed to blog back then, about the flowers and my "status update". but really, things ended before i even had the chance to do so. well, people who should know, knew, and those who didnt, too bad. i guess, i really have no idea what i want, do i?
gw has been super nice about the whole thing, and he could have potentially been my bestest bf, beating ray by a landslide (and tts saying alot, mind you), if only, if only, if only.
to make the long story short, i asked for the flowers. he delivered. i happily accepted. and then i got scared. i realized i wasnt ready. i realized the last occupant has not moved out of, what i thought was, my vacant heart. my fault, totally. and i should just be glad that he's still on talking terms with me now.
dont ask me what i want, i dont know. or maybe i do, i just refuse to come to terms with them.
things are much too complicated for me to just say what i want to say, and hence the severe lack of updates these days. much also has to do with the fact that i miss my laptop terribly. she seem to have taken a part of me with her. i refuse to send her for servicing. shall make a few more attempts at resurrecting her.
i'm fucking depressed now staring at my greatly-missed-lappie. :(
i miss him too. and it sucks, because enough is never really enough. kk thinks it wont be too long before i make up my mind. he seems to already know my choice though.
blah. till when my lappie recovers, and i have pictures to post.
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
fuck the laptop
my beloved laptop of 3 and a half years is currently experiencing her first glitch ever. i'm very irritated because the OS wont start properly, which leaves me at the mercy of my brother (and a particular someone, whose smell is ridiculously addictive) whenever i need to go online.
my presence online now is all thanks to the magnanimity of a very tall cherub, who very kindly loaned me a laptop for a few days.
it is a ghastly 4.40am, and i have to wake up early later on. if i didnt want to desperately try to resurrect mylaoya beloved lappie, i would have zonked out hours ago. you honestly cannot begin to imagine how luring my bed is, with the smell and everything.
okie. fuck. i failed for the millionth time to resurrect the stupid laptop. i'm so going to sleep. fuck.
fuck. i need my heroin fix.
fuck fuck.
my presence online now is all thanks to the magnanimity of a very tall cherub, who very kindly loaned me a laptop for a few days.
it is a ghastly 4.40am, and i have to wake up early later on. if i didnt want to desperately try to resurrect my
okie. fuck. i failed for the millionth time to resurrect the stupid laptop. i'm so going to sleep. fuck.
fuck. i need my heroin fix.
fuck fuck.
Friday, November 28, 2008
flower flower where are you?
where is my flower.. :(
*rawrs*
getting impatient.
where is the flower..
where, where, where, where, where?!
*rawrs*
getting impatient.
where is the flower..
where, where, where, where, where?!
Monday, November 24, 2008
random #25
time is such an amazing thing, no?
i stared out the window in an awe-struck stupefaction; the awe probably brought on by my severe lack of sleep, no thanks to my haste in that attempt to finish up my first book of the twilight saga. (i've since embarked on the second book - new moon, in a snail pace, hoping it would last till at least when the next pay comes in. yes, the over-expenditure.)
so i was staring at the breaking dawn of a new morning, gaping at the beauty of the dark sky that is starting to show signs of the impending light. and i realized, for the millionth time, that i am, but a small part of this vast world, when the majority of our populace gets ready for their day, i turn in bed, about to end mine.
what are you doing right now? right now, as i sit upright in bed, my thoughts whirling around, hovering above my head. what are you doing right now? time is such an amazing thing. its like this universal measurement of every unique experience.
okie, i'm getting a little too abstract to be put into words. the problem with not having enough sleep, and with burying myself in the pages of one fantasy novel after another.
fleeting thoughts. random reiterations of my nondescript life. i know i ever said i hate writing in point form, but when sleep deprivation hits, and your restless mind refuses to stop churning questions, its hard to have to maintain coherence while letting off steam. so here goes,
-ah xiong, the long-lost brother asked me why is the picture of my vindictive ex, as i so call him, still on my friendster, if he is as vindictive as i say he is.
-the same long-lost brother, in response to my less-than-satisfactory answer to his above query, quoted that ah huat said i was an extremely forgiving person.
-fzy said his initials only appear on the hidden entries. which is partly true, but not quite.
-i'm worried about falling in love again. or rather, i should not say love. i definitely loved cjj, and the feeling is not quite the same. i'm worried about falling into dependence again.
-i cant seem to tear myself away from this one person these days, and he's a terribly nice person, who's taking a risk (according to sources that i now deem, unreliable) by his willingness to be my slave.
-at my weakest you appear, what if i become stronger? will you, concurrently, become obsolete? i shudder at that thought.
-i'm appalled by the speed at which random people pick up gossip-worthy information. like how the fact that i've been sitting with ks at work, and how we happen to come in together has led to speculation of a new may-december romance. very disturbing. but a little amusing at the same time.
-i'll watch madagascar for the third time this tuesday. -_-"
-i'm going to submit my application come february for the stupid masters program in ntu. its a hatching decision. so details to come when i've made up my mind.
-the call to apply came after the family meeting with dad, who demanded that i continue with my studies, instead of venturing out into the workforce, which i have been procrastinating.
-there is a high chance i'll get whisked off to australia for studies if my application to ntu is rejected. so, pray for me.
-kk thinks that a long-distance relationship is doomed to fail.
-ah huat thinks i might get a shot at the foreign love as foretold by the palmist a long time ago.
-he is devastated i may have to leave.
-i miss him.
i think the zee monster has just upped its fighting spirit. i'm now battling the level 99 version. eyes barely open. shall update again soon. hopefully with good tidings too. ^^
i stared out the window in an awe-struck stupefaction; the awe probably brought on by my severe lack of sleep, no thanks to my haste in that attempt to finish up my first book of the twilight saga. (i've since embarked on the second book - new moon, in a snail pace, hoping it would last till at least when the next pay comes in. yes, the over-expenditure.)
so i was staring at the breaking dawn of a new morning, gaping at the beauty of the dark sky that is starting to show signs of the impending light. and i realized, for the millionth time, that i am, but a small part of this vast world, when the majority of our populace gets ready for their day, i turn in bed, about to end mine.
what are you doing right now? right now, as i sit upright in bed, my thoughts whirling around, hovering above my head. what are you doing right now? time is such an amazing thing. its like this universal measurement of every unique experience.
okie, i'm getting a little too abstract to be put into words. the problem with not having enough sleep, and with burying myself in the pages of one fantasy novel after another.
fleeting thoughts. random reiterations of my nondescript life. i know i ever said i hate writing in point form, but when sleep deprivation hits, and your restless mind refuses to stop churning questions, its hard to have to maintain coherence while letting off steam. so here goes,
-ah xiong, the long-lost brother asked me why is the picture of my vindictive ex, as i so call him, still on my friendster, if he is as vindictive as i say he is.
-the same long-lost brother, in response to my less-than-satisfactory answer to his above query, quoted that ah huat said i was an extremely forgiving person.
-fzy said his initials only appear on the hidden entries. which is partly true, but not quite.
-i'm worried about falling in love again. or rather, i should not say love. i definitely loved cjj, and the feeling is not quite the same. i'm worried about falling into dependence again.
-i cant seem to tear myself away from this one person these days, and he's a terribly nice person, who's taking a risk (according to sources that i now deem, unreliable) by his willingness to be my slave.
-at my weakest you appear, what if i become stronger? will you, concurrently, become obsolete? i shudder at that thought.
-i'm appalled by the speed at which random people pick up gossip-worthy information. like how the fact that i've been sitting with ks at work, and how we happen to come in together has led to speculation of a new may-december romance. very disturbing. but a little amusing at the same time.
-i'll watch madagascar for the third time this tuesday. -_-"
-i'm going to submit my application come february for the stupid masters program in ntu. its a hatching decision. so details to come when i've made up my mind.
-the call to apply came after the family meeting with dad, who demanded that i continue with my studies, instead of venturing out into the workforce, which i have been procrastinating.
-there is a high chance i'll get whisked off to australia for studies if my application to ntu is rejected. so, pray for me.
-kk thinks that a long-distance relationship is doomed to fail.
-ah huat thinks i might get a shot at the foreign love as foretold by the palmist a long time ago.
-he is devastated i may have to leave.
-i miss him.
i think the zee monster has just upped its fighting spirit. i'm now battling the level 99 version. eyes barely open. shall update again soon. hopefully with good tidings too. ^^
Friday, November 21, 2008
random #24
dawn is about to break, and i'm sitting propped up in bed, with a book in my hands, trying to convince myself that the story is not all that exciting, and i'm tired.
but i'm not. and it is.
i cant believe i made the lousy decision to start on twilight at 3am in the morning, and now, i'm unnervingly hooked to the progressing storyline. i hope i dont finish the book too fast. i'm rather intending to get the second part of the series next month. (over-spent, as usual. -_-")
okie, i need to stop wasting time and get back to bella and edward.
but i'm not. and it is.
i cant believe i made the lousy decision to start on twilight at 3am in the morning, and now, i'm unnervingly hooked to the progressing storyline. i hope i dont finish the book too fast. i'm rather intending to get the second part of the series next month. (over-spent, as usual. -_-")
okie, i need to stop wasting time and get back to bella and edward.
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
occurrence and recurrence.
i am aghast to discover, rather amazingly, that my life is a complicated entanglement of events that occur and recur, occur and recur. albeit with different people in differing points. much like a spider-web, really. this came to me in the midst of reading the mind-fuckingly stupefying email correspondence i had with that much-detested ex boyfriend. (if you get stricken by an uncontrollably horrific bout of sneezing fit, it would be me, cursing you behind your back, for the umpteen time this week. and no, cjj, i'm not talking about you, yet.)
so yes, back then i was helplessly in love with this very much detested ex boyfriend, who as sources indicate, seem to be scuttling ever-lower into that abyss of his loserish-ness. sibeh amazing, how he can just sink lower. then again, sources are biased. so there. must take with a pinch of salt.
back then, i refuse to accept the fact that it simply was not working out.
and now, i am helplessly in love with this irritatingly confused ex boyfriend, who as far as i am concerned, seem to become increasingly unattractive these days. love is blind, i think i am seeing the light at the end of the tunnel.
yes, i somehow, am still refusing to accept the fact that its not going to work out. it disgusts me hell lot, which was what prompted me to publish the hidden entries, you should all become aware of the swimming pool of tears i nearly drowned myself in because of his inability to settle our differences. all the sleepless nights, and food-less days.
but no, i'm not blaming him. in fact, i'm somewhat guilty that i'm allowing the vast world a glimpse into the multitude of pain that he's inflicted upon me. its not his fault that i love him. its not his fault that he's confused. but it is most definitely his fault that he's allowed his confusion to spill over and restart my washing machine emotions.
(just like its not limchiehsern's fault that i loved him, and its not his fault that he didnt love me as much as he had hoped for. but he's entirely to be blamed for cheating on me, and for sleeping around. whether i was the victim or the accomplice, doesnt absolve him of the blame and me of my own heartache.)
you might think i'm inclined towards thinking it could jolly well be my fault that people didnt love me enough, that i loved them too much. but you have to at least remember ray, and her royal highness, who is me.
yes. i want to become the queen again, instead of being slave bizi, who merrily wakes up early to buy breakfast for her undeserving kings (i did that for lcs, and i did it for cjj. yikes! the parallels.) i want to become the queen. i want to have the final say. and i shall need a slave in due course. someone who wakes me up in the mornings (more afternoons than mornings, really), and who'd talk me to sleep when the occasional insomnia strikes.
please dont sign yourself up. i already have a candidate in mind as it is. hor? ^^ (blah, i have more than one candidate in mind, actually, and its driving me up the wall. i'm such a jian nu ren. but i like.)
so yes, back then i was helplessly in love with this very much detested ex boyfriend, who as sources indicate, seem to be scuttling ever-lower into that abyss of his loserish-ness. sibeh amazing, how he can just sink lower. then again, sources are biased. so there. must take with a pinch of salt.
back then, i refuse to accept the fact that it simply was not working out.
and now, i am helplessly in love with this irritatingly confused ex boyfriend, who as far as i am concerned, seem to become increasingly unattractive these days. love is blind, i think i am seeing the light at the end of the tunnel.
yes, i somehow, am still refusing to accept the fact that its not going to work out. it disgusts me hell lot, which was what prompted me to publish the hidden entries, you should all become aware of the swimming pool of tears i nearly drowned myself in because of his inability to settle our differences. all the sleepless nights, and food-less days.
but no, i'm not blaming him. in fact, i'm somewhat guilty that i'm allowing the vast world a glimpse into the multitude of pain that he's inflicted upon me. its not his fault that i love him. its not his fault that he's confused. but it is most definitely his fault that he's allowed his confusion to spill over and restart my washing machine emotions.
(just like its not limchiehsern's fault that i loved him, and its not his fault that he didnt love me as much as he had hoped for. but he's entirely to be blamed for cheating on me, and for sleeping around. whether i was the victim or the accomplice, doesnt absolve him of the blame and me of my own heartache.)
you might think i'm inclined towards thinking it could jolly well be my fault that people didnt love me enough, that i loved them too much. but you have to at least remember ray, and her royal highness, who is me.
yes. i want to become the queen again, instead of being slave bizi, who merrily wakes up early to buy breakfast for her undeserving kings (i did that for lcs, and i did it for cjj. yikes! the parallels.) i want to become the queen. i want to have the final say. and i shall need a slave in due course. someone who wakes me up in the mornings (more afternoons than mornings, really), and who'd talk me to sleep when the occasional insomnia strikes.
please dont sign yourself up. i already have a candidate in mind as it is. hor? ^^ (blah, i have more than one candidate in mind, actually, and its driving me up the wall. i'm such a jian nu ren. but i like.)
devastatingly undecided.
i, am, devastatingly undecided. which is why i've published all the hidden and unpublished entries i wrote in the anguish post-break up.
truths, which not even kk knew entirely of. the pain, every fucking day. the heartache every fucking night. it took me so fucking long to walk out of it, and just one day, with just one conversation, i've lost that footing it took me so long to gain.
all i needed was that occasional hug, the random kisses. and i've never asked anything else of you. i've never wanted anything else from you. because everything, anyhow, i just want you to be happy. i subjugated my needs to your wants. and it somehow is my fault?
and now, i am once again, devastatingly undecided. just go. it hurts hell lot that i have to say it, it hurts hell lot. i wish i could give you all the time in the world to lift that confusion, to decide. but every fucking second, a brick falls off the crumbling tower of my emotions.
where were you when i needed you? what were you doing when my heart was breaking into pieces? what were you thinking when you stabbed your unfeeling knife into my healing wound?
All we had was just one summer
Two lovers strolling in the park
But like they say the world keeps turning
As the leaves were falling we should fall apart
Now I'm waiting for the winter
To build a castle out of ice
And deep inside this massive building
Theres a crystal lake of all the tears I cried
Baby for all my life
Don't you know that it's true
I'm living to love you
So baby don't think twice
If you feel what I feel
Trust your heart, and do what I do
'Cause I'm living to love you
When you're gone, it's not forever
Cause you're remaining in my heart
So tell me why I feel this aching
Every time I think of you when we're apart
I admit that from time to time
I'm feeling insecure
And think I'm gonna lose my mind
Don't let it show, oh, no, no, no
I don't think I'll ever understand
That our loving should never have a happy end
So I'm really gonna try my best
To let you know
Baby for all my life
Don't you know that it's true
I'm living to love you
So baby don't think twice
If you feel what I feel
Trust your heart, and do what I do
'Cause I'm living to love you
When the final day comes
I know the angels
They will see my smile
And if they wanna know the reason
I will tell them why
Baby for all my life
I'm living to love you
truths, which not even kk knew entirely of. the pain, every fucking day. the heartache every fucking night. it took me so fucking long to walk out of it, and just one day, with just one conversation, i've lost that footing it took me so long to gain.
all i needed was that occasional hug, the random kisses. and i've never asked anything else of you. i've never wanted anything else from you. because everything, anyhow, i just want you to be happy. i subjugated my needs to your wants. and it somehow is my fault?
and now, i am once again, devastatingly undecided. just go. it hurts hell lot that i have to say it, it hurts hell lot. i wish i could give you all the time in the world to lift that confusion, to decide. but every fucking second, a brick falls off the crumbling tower of my emotions.
where were you when i needed you? what were you doing when my heart was breaking into pieces? what were you thinking when you stabbed your unfeeling knife into my healing wound?
All we had was just one summer
Two lovers strolling in the park
But like they say the world keeps turning
As the leaves were falling we should fall apart
Now I'm waiting for the winter
To build a castle out of ice
And deep inside this massive building
Theres a crystal lake of all the tears I cried
Baby for all my life
Don't you know that it's true
I'm living to love you
So baby don't think twice
If you feel what I feel
Trust your heart, and do what I do
'Cause I'm living to love you
When you're gone, it's not forever
Cause you're remaining in my heart
So tell me why I feel this aching
Every time I think of you when we're apart
I admit that from time to time
I'm feeling insecure
And think I'm gonna lose my mind
Don't let it show, oh, no, no, no
I don't think I'll ever understand
That our loving should never have a happy end
So I'm really gonna try my best
To let you know
Baby for all my life
Don't you know that it's true
I'm living to love you
So baby don't think twice
If you feel what I feel
Trust your heart, and do what I do
'Cause I'm living to love you
When the final day comes
I know the angels
They will see my smile
And if they wanna know the reason
I will tell them why
Baby for all my life
I'm living to love you
Sunday, November 9, 2008
random #23
look, here's what's going on right now - NOTHING.
there is nothing for me to say, with regards to the on-goings of my life at its present state of confusion.
i thank you for the concern, and i apologize if my behavior has caused distress to people i cant care less about.
so stop asking ah fang what is up with me. i love my ah fang, and i dont want my disability to lead a scandal-free life to bother her. she doesnt know anything, in fact, nobody knows anything, because there is nothing to be known, yet.
there is nothing for me to say, with regards to the on-goings of my life at its present state of confusion.
i thank you for the concern, and i apologize if my behavior has caused distress to people i cant care less about.
so stop asking ah fang what is up with me. i love my ah fang, and i dont want my disability to lead a scandal-free life to bother her. she doesnt know anything, in fact, nobody knows anything, because there is nothing to be known, yet.
分手 第80天
*hidden entry #15*
你说我爱你太多 就快要把你淹没
你害怕幸福 短暂一秒就崩落
分开是一种解脱 让你好好的想过
我想要的那片天空 你是不是能够给我
你说我给你太多 却不能给我什麽
分不清激情承诺永恒或迷惑
爱情是一道伤口 我们各自苦痛
沉默是我最後温柔 是因为我太爱你
i'm completely blown away by the way events are turning out. i wish there was something i could do to make it better for them both, and for myself. i wish i knew what is wrong now. but, it seems, the more i try, the worse it gets.
i've always only wanted us to be happy, wanted him to be happy.
it wasnt easy, pretending to be happy, just so ppl might be more able to absolve him of whatever blame they wanted to place on him. it wasnt easy, pretending to be alright, when i'm not at all. it wasnt easy having this sense of contentment, infused with the stingingly fresh pricks at my heart, course through me each and every time i saw him, heard him, missed him.
i've more or less walked past that stage. i dont think i can allow myself to retract and fall into that abyss of misery all over again. i dont think i will.
feelings fade. feelings are still there though they faded. feelings take time to grow, trust takes time to build.
you pry open my wound to pick at the rawness of the flesh. and still, i cant find it my heart to even want to associate you with the pain that i'm feeling. i know its not your fault, i want to be able to do something to dispel that confusion you're clouded in. i want to do something to make you happy, so that i can be happy. but everything i do, you push me further away.
你要我安静的走开吗？
你害怕幸福 短暂一秒就崩落
分开是一种解脱 让你好好的想过
我想要的那片天空 你是不是能够给我
你说我给你太多 却不能给我什麽
分不清激情承诺永恒或迷惑
爱情是一道伤口 我们各自苦痛
沉默是我最後温柔 是因为我太爱你
i'm completely blown away by the way events are turning out. i wish there was something i could do to make it better for them both, and for myself. i wish i knew what is wrong now. but, it seems, the more i try, the worse it gets.
i've always only wanted us to be happy, wanted him to be happy.
it wasnt easy, pretending to be happy, just so ppl might be more able to absolve him of whatever blame they wanted to place on him. it wasnt easy, pretending to be alright, when i'm not at all. it wasnt easy having this sense of contentment, infused with the stingingly fresh pricks at my heart, course through me each and every time i saw him, heard him, missed him.
i've more or less walked past that stage. i dont think i can allow myself to retract and fall into that abyss of misery all over again. i dont think i will.
feelings fade. feelings are still there though they faded. feelings take time to grow, trust takes time to build.
you pry open my wound to pick at the rawness of the flesh. and still, i cant find it my heart to even want to associate you with the pain that i'm feeling. i know its not your fault, i want to be able to do something to dispel that confusion you're clouded in. i want to do something to make you happy, so that i can be happy. but everything i do, you push me further away.
你要我安静的走开吗？
Friday, November 7, 2008
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
many cds
super busy.
have my jayjayjayjayjay's new album to memorise, along with the super power she album and that shen mu yu tong album.
super super super busy!!
oh oh, ah fang, ruan jing tian got appear in my new fav song's mtv!! but the full version is not out yet..
edited to include the full version,
have my jayjayjayjayjay's new album to memorise, along with the super power she album and that shen mu yu tong album.
super super super busy!!
oh oh, ah fang, ruan jing tian got appear in my new fav song's mtv!! but the full version is not out yet..
edited to include the full version,
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
many many pictures la!
i realize the blog looks pretty dull, what with the severe lack of new posts, and the even more severe lack of pictures. yes, i know i havent been updating. i have like a whole shitload of photos to post la.
from the bird park trip with ah fang and seamus, on hisbirdday birthday, no less!
there's also the mambo pictures from, shit! its one week already. i so desperately want to go again la. eh, actually, i dont really want to go la. hahaha. i'm just saying for the sake of saying. -_-"
then there's also pictures from when i went to watch songs of the sea with gw on monday.
first up! bird park on seamus's birthday. ^^
and i just realize i dont have any pictures of him, because he had his own camera on the day. -_-"
the irritating shah said i reminded him of his pet bird, which died, due to over-feeding. and they over-fed him because he constantly opened his mouth, like he was hungry.
pretty flamingos. i've decided that they shall be my new favourite animal. like how pink!! and its completely amazing how they can balance on one sticky-thin leg and just fold their heads to rest on their backs.
somedays, we like to pretend to be something else. and this day, we imagine ourselves to be flamingos. -_-"
birds n buddies show!!
(okie, its just the stage, the birds were too damn fast for me to take la.)
ah huat, the over-enthusiastic shyna (the new chee-na, as taught to us by chicken nugget) tourist, whose hand shot up when they asked for a volunteer. she won herself a free drink leh!
okie la. i'm not any better. haha.. but i dont have free drink leh. and all the tourisy picture the bird park ppl took of me totally cannot make it lor!! urgh! freaking unfair!
the man-made waterfall ah huat was super excited to see.
the irritating kissing birds. kissing the entire freaking time. i also want la. muahahaha!! -_-"
ah fang likes the yellow on the bird. very pretty. ^^
thereafter, we went to queensway to get seamus his pants and shirts. and then to ikea for meatballs and chicken wings.
seamus's shirt is big enough to be ah fang's pjs la. -_-"
some sibeh cute ang mo kid at ikea. its this reason i got slightly cheered up by that laoya palmist from sometime ago, who foretold that i would get married to some foreigner. i want an ang mo baby!!
childhood revisited. ^^
then, there's the mambo pictures from the other day. ^^
let's see how many of us went, there was me, my wifey (ah fang), my gf (teresa), my love (adel), the 2 xiao didis (thomas and kevin), meh meh, jian nan ren, kenny, darren, ah tom (jerry), tian le and manson!
cam-whoring in the toilet before the arrival of my wifey, ah fang.
the blotch of thingy there that ah fang was supposedly staring at, is actually my thumb, covering the lens. lol.
my beloveds at mambo. ^^
kenny drank too much la. -_-"
adel!
the 2 loves of my life.
ah tom!!
cam-whoring in the toilet again. lol. ^^
guess who's really talking on the phone!
ans: ah fang!! hehehe.. we damn convincing right?! hehe..
meh meh, the sibeh late latecomer who reached like at close to midnight. damn on la him, had training till like 11pm and he still came. unlike some, who made ah fang go, despite having to work next morning, and last minute pang seh-ing. we've lost a friend, my dear, we really have.
the only picture i managed to capture of manny singh, who was all over the place that night. -_-"
thomas was damn high that day la. and i have super alot of his super cannot make it pictures lor.. haha..
sending adel, who had other friends to meet, off. looking for kenny who got wasted and disapeared, the only mishap of the night. and resting our legs.
whoo hoo! we really stayed till lights on!
caught songs of the sea (sots) with gw the other day. and i remember i was like laughing my head off at kk back then. karma goes one round, my friend. -_-"
only have one picture from that day, cuz, ya. you dont really want to see a whole succession of gw's face change from smile to frown and back to smile again. damn cute la. hehe.. ^^
we're going to go see this early next month.
went to take the stupid passport-sized photo earlier, and its completely freaking ugly la. urgh. the stupid auntie sibeh no skill lor! angry! eeks.
you have no idea how freaking long i took to upload that whole shitload of photos, and even longer sieving through them, deciding which to post and which not to. (have like a total of 80 from bird park and 130 from mambo and yet another 30 over from the sots day.)
i've lost count of the number of times gw asked if i'm done and i had to say, 'ya, finishing.' he's supposed to send me this picture, which is taking a damn long time, because the stupid photoshop refuses to get installed onto his laoya com.
i shall go nua abit before my disgusting 2am to 11am graveyard shift. yes, its 2am to 11am, you read right.
from the bird park trip with ah fang and seamus, on his
there's also the mambo pictures from, shit! its one week already. i so desperately want to go again la. eh, actually, i dont really want to go la. hahaha. i'm just saying for the sake of saying. -_-"
then there's also pictures from when i went to watch songs of the sea with gw on monday.
first up! bird park on seamus's birthday. ^^
and i just realize i dont have any pictures of him, because he had his own camera on the day. -_-"
the irritating shah said i reminded him of his pet bird, which died, due to over-feeding. and they over-fed him because he constantly opened his mouth, like he was hungry.
pretty flamingos. i've decided that they shall be my new favourite animal. like how pink!! and its completely amazing how they can balance on one sticky-thin leg and just fold their heads to rest on their backs.
somedays, we like to pretend to be something else. and this day, we imagine ourselves to be flamingos. -_-"
birds n buddies show!!
(okie, its just the stage, the birds were too damn fast for me to take la.)
ah huat, the over-enthusiastic shyna (the new chee-na, as taught to us by chicken nugget) tourist, whose hand shot up when they asked for a volunteer. she won herself a free drink leh!
okie la. i'm not any better. haha.. but i dont have free drink leh. and all the tourisy picture the bird park ppl took of me totally cannot make it lor!! urgh! freaking unfair!
the man-made waterfall ah huat was super excited to see.
the irritating kissing birds. kissing the entire freaking time. i also want la. muahahaha!! -_-"
ah fang likes the yellow on the bird. very pretty. ^^
thereafter, we went to queensway to get seamus his pants and shirts. and then to ikea for meatballs and chicken wings.
seamus's shirt is big enough to be ah fang's pjs la. -_-"
some sibeh cute ang mo kid at ikea. its this reason i got slightly cheered up by that laoya palmist from sometime ago, who foretold that i would get married to some foreigner. i want an ang mo baby!!
childhood revisited. ^^
then, there's the mambo pictures from the other day. ^^
let's see how many of us went, there was me, my wifey (ah fang), my gf (teresa), my love (adel), the 2 xiao didis (thomas and kevin), meh meh, jian nan ren, kenny, darren, ah tom (jerry), tian le and manson!
cam-whoring in the toilet before the arrival of my wifey, ah fang.
the blotch of thingy there that ah fang was supposedly staring at, is actually my thumb, covering the lens. lol.
my beloveds at mambo. ^^
kenny drank too much la. -_-"
adel!
the 2 loves of my life.
ah tom!!
cam-whoring in the toilet again. lol. ^^
guess who's really talking on the phone!
ans: ah fang!! hehehe.. we damn convincing right?! hehe..
meh meh, the sibeh late latecomer who reached like at close to midnight. damn on la him, had training till like 11pm and he still came. unlike some, who made ah fang go, despite having to work next morning, and last minute pang seh-ing. we've lost a friend, my dear, we really have.
the only picture i managed to capture of manny singh, who was all over the place that night. -_-"
thomas was damn high that day la. and i have super alot of his super cannot make it pictures lor.. haha..
sending adel, who had other friends to meet, off. looking for kenny who got wasted and disapeared, the only mishap of the night. and resting our legs.
whoo hoo! we really stayed till lights on!
caught songs of the sea (sots) with gw the other day. and i remember i was like laughing my head off at kk back then. karma goes one round, my friend. -_-"
only have one picture from that day, cuz, ya. you dont really want to see a whole succession of gw's face change from smile to frown and back to smile again. damn cute la. hehe.. ^^
we're going to go see this early next month.
went to take the stupid passport-sized photo earlier, and its completely freaking ugly la. urgh. the stupid auntie sibeh no skill lor! angry! eeks.
you have no idea how freaking long i took to upload that whole shitload of photos, and even longer sieving through them, deciding which to post and which not to. (have like a total of 80 from bird park and 130 from mambo and yet another 30 over from the sots day.)
i've lost count of the number of times gw asked if i'm done and i had to say, 'ya, finishing.' he's supposed to send me this picture, which is taking a damn long time, because the stupid photoshop refuses to get installed onto his laoya com.
i shall go nua abit before my disgusting 2am to 11am graveyard shift. yes, its 2am to 11am, you read right.
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