post removed because of the negative impact it has on me whenever i read my own blog.
ray is a wonderful boyfriend. i'm just a crazy-ass girlfriend.
ray is a wonderful boyfriend. i am that shit-ass girlfriend.
maybe i should start treating him better, and stop taking him on my emotional roller-coaster ride.
oh, btw, happy birthday to ryan. its around this time four years ago that i sat, sweating, in the toilet, and telling my mother on the other side of the door, that i need to lao sai terribly.
Friday, February 29, 2008
Tuesday, February 26, 2008
青花瓷
"素胚勾勒出青花笔锋浓转淡"
i spent about an hour of my time trying to figure out what the verycheena talented 方文山 was trying to convey with 青花瓷. and i should have been doing my computing project, which is done now, more than 2 hours later than it should have been, because i was busy with other things, such as falling asleep.
anyways, since i'm so intrigued with the song, here are the lyrics in its entirety and ah fang, the chinese major, better be able to make sense of the thing, because bizi, the chinese 'ao' A1 is rolling on the floor with apparent agony at failing to grasp anything out of the whole thing.
素胚勾勒出青花笔锋浓转淡
瓶身描绘的牡丹一如你初妆
冉冉檀香透过窗心事我了然
宣纸上走笔至此搁一半
釉色渲染仕女图韵味被私藏
而你嫣然的一笑如含苞待放
你的美一缕飘散去到我去不了的地方
天青色等烟雨而我在等你
炊烟袅袅升起隔江千万里
在瓶底书汉隶仿前朝的飘逸
就当我为遇见你伏笔
天青色等烟雨而我在等你
月色被打捞起晕开了结局
如传世的青花瓷自顾自美丽你眼带笑意
色白花青的锦鲤跃然於碗底
临摹宋体落款时却惦记著你
你隐藏在窑烧里千年的秘密
极细腻犹如绣花针落地
帘外芭蕉惹骤雨门环惹铜绿
而我路过那江南小镇惹了你
在泼墨山水画里你从墨色深处被隐去
天青色等烟雨而我在等你
炊烟袅袅升起隔江千万里
在瓶底书汉隶仿前朝的飘逸
就当我为遇见你伏笔
天青色等烟雨而我在等你
月色被打捞起晕开了结局
如传世的青花瓷自顾自美丽你眼带笑意
of course, i know what it means now, thanks to the very trusty jay-chou.net lyrics forum, with the pinyin and the english translation. heehee.
and since i've already finished my computing project, i think i should reward myself with a short nap. oh.. smelly raymond tan thinks i've been slacking and that nowadays fei fei liao. fei his head. i think he's just jealous since he's been having ots these few days. oh well, i am going to go sleep before he wakes me up. ^^
oh oh. and i nearly bought this, until i realised that i havent been working, and therefore, there will be very little, if any at all, money coming in. :(
ps. when i refresh on my blog, the whole chunk of text looks like the encoding was wrong. its so cheem, it doesnt look like words.
i spent about an hour of my time trying to figure out what the very
anyways, since i'm so intrigued with the song, here are the lyrics in its entirety and ah fang, the chinese major, better be able to make sense of the thing, because bizi, the chinese 'ao' A1 is rolling on the floor with apparent agony at failing to grasp anything out of the whole thing.
素胚勾勒出青花笔锋浓转淡
瓶身描绘的牡丹一如你初妆
冉冉檀香透过窗心事我了然
宣纸上走笔至此搁一半
釉色渲染仕女图韵味被私藏
而你嫣然的一笑如含苞待放
你的美一缕飘散去到我去不了的地方
天青色等烟雨而我在等你
炊烟袅袅升起隔江千万里
在瓶底书汉隶仿前朝的飘逸
就当我为遇见你伏笔
天青色等烟雨而我在等你
月色被打捞起晕开了结局
如传世的青花瓷自顾自美丽你眼带笑意
色白花青的锦鲤跃然於碗底
临摹宋体落款时却惦记著你
你隐藏在窑烧里千年的秘密
极细腻犹如绣花针落地
帘外芭蕉惹骤雨门环惹铜绿
而我路过那江南小镇惹了你
在泼墨山水画里你从墨色深处被隐去
天青色等烟雨而我在等你
炊烟袅袅升起隔江千万里
在瓶底书汉隶仿前朝的飘逸
就当我为遇见你伏笔
天青色等烟雨而我在等你
月色被打捞起晕开了结局
如传世的青花瓷自顾自美丽你眼带笑意
of course, i know what it means now, thanks to the very trusty jay-chou.net lyrics forum, with the pinyin and the english translation. heehee.
and since i've already finished my computing project, i think i should reward myself with a short nap. oh.. smelly raymond tan thinks i've been slacking and that nowadays fei fei liao. fei his head. i think he's just jealous since he's been having ots these few days. oh well, i am going to go sleep before he wakes me up. ^^
oh oh. and i nearly bought this, until i realised that i havent been working, and therefore, there will be very little, if any at all, money coming in. :(
ps. when i refresh on my blog, the whole chunk of text looks like the encoding was wrong. its so cheem, it doesnt look like words.
Monday, February 25, 2008
yoga
honestly, why would anyone choose such a song to sing in a competition? and it was the finals, no less. thom yorke?! he must be crazy.
but, if you, like me, watched his entire progression in the competition, (i watched like 10 performances in the last few hours?) including his last english song, you will be amazed at the amount of hard work he put into this song.
as if you could sing half as good as he did.
forget jam. i'm into yoga. ^^ (what's it with their english names anyway?!)
Saturday, February 23, 2008
mid semester break.
working next week..
wednesday 2305 - 0605
thursday 2200 - 0400
friday 2030 - 0330
have one project to complete by tuesday night. and 2 tests to study for during the entire mid semester break. have to occasionally give tuition to the very troublesome korean family. so you can see, i'm honestly quite busy. i honestly dont have much time left for anything else other than hugging my boyfriend and levelling the rogue.
and i still have to sort out the huge pile of career info i got off the career fair yesterday. the economy is doing well. we're all getting money. i dont think i'll be out of job for too long. i dont really want to go into the public sector, because it just feels like government jobs are those that you will stick to for the rest of your life, what with all those marriage/family/child leave/bonuses. i told my ma, as well as baby ray, that i'll stick my foot into some private company and work my ass off for a few years before knocking back on the government's door.
oh well, am going to get some more sleep before baby wakes me up to hug hug and kiss kiss and wow.
wednesday 2305 - 0605
thursday 2200 - 0400
friday 2030 - 0330
have one project to complete by tuesday night. and 2 tests to study for during the entire mid semester break. have to occasionally give tuition to the very troublesome korean family. so you can see, i'm honestly quite busy. i honestly dont have much time left for anything else other than hugging my boyfriend and levelling the rogue.
and i still have to sort out the huge pile of career info i got off the career fair yesterday. the economy is doing well. we're all getting money. i dont think i'll be out of job for too long. i dont really want to go into the public sector, because it just feels like government jobs are those that you will stick to for the rest of your life, what with all those marriage/family/child leave/bonuses. i told my ma, as well as baby ray, that i'll stick my foot into some private company and work my ass off for a few years before knocking back on the government's door.
oh well, am going to get some more sleep before baby wakes me up to hug hug and kiss kiss and wow.
Tuesday, February 19, 2008
holga craving.
i really, really, really, really, really want this. :(
its like less than $100 on this spree now. stupid motherboard. sigh..
waiting for baby to call. he's talking with this friend right now. i think they're going to join superband.
its like less than $100 on this spree now. stupid motherboard. sigh..
waiting for baby to call. he's talking with this friend right now. i think they're going to join superband.
Monday, February 18, 2008
suchabitch
was talking to baby, as usual. we talk all the freaking time when we're not together. its not like there're lots to talk about. i just like the feeling of having something tangible to hold on to. and when i cant see him, hearing him is like the next best thing.
thats me. thats ultra inferiority complex me. thats ultra insecure me. thats ultra hard to handle me. so much for not having changed much since the beginning. its amazing how he's able to take all my nonsense in his stride, as though they werent anything much. such that i dont even register the damage i've been doing. guess i was living in my own world again. i think its me. like its this one huge obstacle that i am simply not able to get across.
i dont want to be like that. but somehow, no matter how much i try, or think i'm trying, i subconsciously do all those things that i didnt want to in the first place. and each time i get bitten by how it really is, how i really am, the shock that registers become harder and harder to digest.
ray loves me. i think. but no matter, because he's done alot for me. and for that, he deserves more than the shit that i've been throwing at him. its hard. because baby doesnt protest. and when i do realise i havent been treating him the way i ought to, its usually big, its usually bad. and the few times he does, the few times he protests because i tell him to, i breakdown. i breakdown the way i brokedown awhile ago, i breakdown the way i'm breaking down now. i breakdown the way i'm going to in awhile.
its not easy when you think you've changed, and you realise that you really havent. and instead, you've become worse. maybe i'm better suited for the mentally torturous relationship.
thats me. thats ultra inferiority complex me. thats ultra insecure me. thats ultra hard to handle me. so much for not having changed much since the beginning. its amazing how he's able to take all my nonsense in his stride, as though they werent anything much. such that i dont even register the damage i've been doing. guess i was living in my own world again. i think its me. like its this one huge obstacle that i am simply not able to get across.
i dont want to be like that. but somehow, no matter how much i try, or think i'm trying, i subconsciously do all those things that i didnt want to in the first place. and each time i get bitten by how it really is, how i really am, the shock that registers become harder and harder to digest.
ray loves me. i think. but no matter, because he's done alot for me. and for that, he deserves more than the shit that i've been throwing at him. its hard. because baby doesnt protest. and when i do realise i havent been treating him the way i ought to, its usually big, its usually bad. and the few times he does, the few times he protests because i tell him to, i breakdown. i breakdown the way i brokedown awhile ago, i breakdown the way i'm breaking down now. i breakdown the way i'm going to in awhile.
its not easy when you think you've changed, and you realise that you really havent. and instead, you've become worse. maybe i'm better suited for the mentally torturous relationship.
Sunday, February 17, 2008
random #4
i got motivated by that last post of mine to go look up my archive and look back on the things i said about ray.
in april 2007
and in june 2007
isnt it nice? that its been one year and the things that made me smile during the initial months still hold true? and when he came to fetch me over to his place last night, that bugger had the decency to accuse me of complaining about him in my blog when all i've been saying about him are the nice things. asshole.
anyways, babe and i have gotten our letters of appointment from singapore pools already. i'm starting my ojt (on-job-training) tomorrow. at 8-freaking-30 am no less. which means i'll have to get my ass out of bed by 7. oh well, considering that raymond tan that bugger has this ridiculous propensity to overspend, i guess i dont have much of a choice. the said bugger just made us spend $400+ on a new motherboard because he stupidly damaged the old one. (i am close to thinking he did it on purpose just so he had a legitimate excuse to get a new one.)
and i was thinking about getting us a wii after we get the growth dividend thingy in april. i'm guessing baby's gonna want to spend it on upgrading his stupid computer.
i think i shall spend it on a package for brazilian waxing. i've finally went and did it with babe the other day. feels nice now. raymond tan that asshole has been so absorbed in fixing up his stupid computer that he failed to pay me any attention.
blah!!!!! i'm super upset now that he's more interested in that damn machine. baby said just now that he hates it sometimes, when he spends so much on his computer and on gaming. well, i hate it too.
shall go revise for my freaking i/o test already. urghhhhh..
in april 2007
and in june 2007
isnt it nice? that its been one year and the things that made me smile during the initial months still hold true? and when he came to fetch me over to his place last night, that bugger had the decency to accuse me of complaining about him in my blog when all i've been saying about him are the nice things. asshole.
anyways, babe and i have gotten our letters of appointment from singapore pools already. i'm starting my ojt (on-job-training) tomorrow. at 8-freaking-30 am no less. which means i'll have to get my ass out of bed by 7. oh well, considering that raymond tan that bugger has this ridiculous propensity to overspend, i guess i dont have much of a choice. the said bugger just made us spend $400+ on a new motherboard because he stupidly damaged the old one. (i am close to thinking he did it on purpose just so he had a legitimate excuse to get a new one.)
and i was thinking about getting us a wii after we get the growth dividend thingy in april. i'm guessing baby's gonna want to spend it on upgrading his stupid computer.
i think i shall spend it on a package for brazilian waxing. i've finally went and did it with babe the other day. feels nice now. raymond tan that asshole has been so absorbed in fixing up his stupid computer that he failed to pay me any attention.
blah!!!!! i'm super upset now that he's more interested in that damn machine. baby said just now that he hates it sometimes, when he spends so much on his computer and on gaming. well, i hate it too.
shall go revise for my freaking i/o test already. urghhhhh..
Saturday, February 16, 2008
post valentine's
being with ray has made me realise that i'm not exactly an occasions person.
let's see.. we didnt 'celebrate' both the valentine's we spent together. we werent too bothered with giving each other birthday surprises. i fell asleep before the christmas feast on the eve. we counted down to 2008 playing wow.
being with ray has also made me realise that i'm a presents person. ^^
i like buying things for baby ray. and honestly, i dont need an occasion to do that. if there's nothing to buy, there's nothing to buy. i hate the feeling of having to buy him something because its freaking whatever day.
if there's something that the stingy pig has been dying to get for himself, i'll buy it. if i see something i think looks nice on him, i'll buy it. and i'll buy it even though there's no occasion. and on an occasion, all that matters to me, is that we spend it together.
i like to buy baby presents because i like to see his super cute childish happy look. i like to buy baby presents because it irks me whenever he takes a fancy to something and subsequently refuse to get it because of this and because of that (its really because he thinks its not worth spending his money on non-gaming/computer-related stuff). most of all, i like to buy baby presents because it makes me feel good.
somehow, it makes me feel as though buying him stuff makes up for all the times i lose my temper on him. its happening less frequently now, but its happening on a much greater magnitude. the last time i lost my temper, that time on cny, had me crying hysterically for an hour on that pavement opposite his house, while his friends waited at home. and i happily whisked my boyfriend home with me after that. now you know why it makes sense if his friends all hate the bitch that is me.
and i suddenly feel like doing a 'i'm thankful for ray because..'
well, here goes.. ^^
1. i'm thankful for ray because he has never ever ever lost his patience on me, raised his voice at me, got angry with me. that's despite all those times i screamed at him, walked out on him, lashed out at him in front of his friends.
2. i'm thankful for ray because he always gives in to my hug-hug, smell-smell, ya bian-bian requests.
3. i'm thankful for ray because he will hug me to sleep, pat me to sleep, hold my hand till i sleep, if that's what i wanted.
4. i'm thankful for ray because he shoves his smelly armpits in my face after bathing.
5. i'm thankful for ray because he sends me up the lift, hugs me in the lift, makes funny faces so that i smile when we say goodbye.
6. i'm thankful for ray because he comes to my rescue when we play wow, even though it kills him.
7. i'm thankful for ray because he indulges in my 'big kiss, small kiss, super super big and super super small kiss' requests when we talk at night.
8. i'm thankful for ray because he sms greets me in the mornings. every mornings. and when he doesnt sms me, he greets me with a kiss.
9. i'm thankful for ray because he makes an effort to meet me after work whenever i ask for it. and i ask for it quite alot.
10. i'm thankful for ray because he accompanies me to 7-11 in the middle of the night whenever i get a snack craving.
11. i'm thankful for ray because he cooks us 2 packets of maggi mee with eggs, and ends up eating more than half of everything. and he knows i'm trying to make him fat. and he cleans up after that.
12. i'm thankful for ray because he lets me rub his growing tummy even though he hates it.
13. i'm thankful for ray because he has become immune to me groping his butt in public. and i've been groping it more and more.
14. i'm thankful for ray because he attacks my boobs when i least expects it.
15. i'm thankful for ray because we can orh pi sai and fart smelly farts together in the car on our way home
16. i'm thankful for ray because he lets me lie on his lap and nap when he drives me home in the morning and i'll always prefer a van.
17. i'm thankful for ray because the back of his neck smells nice.
18. i'm thankful for ray because he babytalks with me. tuti baobao bao.
19. i'm thankful for ray because he vacuums his room without me having to ask him to do it, when i start sneezing.
20. i'm thankful for ray because he is disgusted by my boobs. he thinks they belong to him and him alone.
and lastly, i'm thankful for ray because he makes me smile, just by thinking about him. ^^
i love my darling boyfriend, even though he makes me completely exasperated when he goes into that hardcore gaming mode of his. i love my darling boyfriend, and i'm going to sleep now, hoping that i dream of him tonight.
a little flower blossoms in my fluttery little heart each day you hug me the way i do. and if you'd hug me every day for the rest of the year, i'll have the biggest and nicest bouquet i can ever get.
let's see.. we didnt 'celebrate' both the valentine's we spent together. we werent too bothered with giving each other birthday surprises. i fell asleep before the christmas feast on the eve. we counted down to 2008 playing wow.
being with ray has also made me realise that i'm a presents person. ^^
i like buying things for baby ray. and honestly, i dont need an occasion to do that. if there's nothing to buy, there's nothing to buy. i hate the feeling of having to buy him something because its freaking whatever day.
if there's something that the stingy pig has been dying to get for himself, i'll buy it. if i see something i think looks nice on him, i'll buy it. and i'll buy it even though there's no occasion. and on an occasion, all that matters to me, is that we spend it together.
i like to buy baby presents because i like to see his super cute childish happy look. i like to buy baby presents because it irks me whenever he takes a fancy to something and subsequently refuse to get it because of this and because of that (its really because he thinks its not worth spending his money on non-gaming/computer-related stuff). most of all, i like to buy baby presents because it makes me feel good.
somehow, it makes me feel as though buying him stuff makes up for all the times i lose my temper on him. its happening less frequently now, but its happening on a much greater magnitude. the last time i lost my temper, that time on cny, had me crying hysterically for an hour on that pavement opposite his house, while his friends waited at home. and i happily whisked my boyfriend home with me after that. now you know why it makes sense if his friends all hate the bitch that is me.
and i suddenly feel like doing a 'i'm thankful for ray because..'
well, here goes.. ^^
1. i'm thankful for ray because he has never ever ever lost his patience on me, raised his voice at me, got angry with me. that's despite all those times i screamed at him, walked out on him, lashed out at him in front of his friends.
2. i'm thankful for ray because he always gives in to my hug-hug, smell-smell, ya bian-bian requests.
3. i'm thankful for ray because he will hug me to sleep, pat me to sleep, hold my hand till i sleep, if that's what i wanted.
4. i'm thankful for ray because he shoves his smelly armpits in my face after bathing.
5. i'm thankful for ray because he sends me up the lift, hugs me in the lift, makes funny faces so that i smile when we say goodbye.
6. i'm thankful for ray because he comes to my rescue when we play wow, even though it kills him.
7. i'm thankful for ray because he indulges in my 'big kiss, small kiss, super super big and super super small kiss' requests when we talk at night.
8. i'm thankful for ray because he sms greets me in the mornings. every mornings. and when he doesnt sms me, he greets me with a kiss.
9. i'm thankful for ray because he makes an effort to meet me after work whenever i ask for it. and i ask for it quite alot.
10. i'm thankful for ray because he accompanies me to 7-11 in the middle of the night whenever i get a snack craving.
11. i'm thankful for ray because he cooks us 2 packets of maggi mee with eggs, and ends up eating more than half of everything. and he knows i'm trying to make him fat. and he cleans up after that.
12. i'm thankful for ray because he lets me rub his growing tummy even though he hates it.
13. i'm thankful for ray because he has become immune to me groping his butt in public. and i've been groping it more and more.
14. i'm thankful for ray because he attacks my boobs when i least expects it.
15. i'm thankful for ray because we can orh pi sai and fart smelly farts together in the car on our way home
16. i'm thankful for ray because he lets me lie on his lap and nap when he drives me home in the morning and i'll always prefer a van.
17. i'm thankful for ray because the back of his neck smells nice.
18. i'm thankful for ray because he babytalks with me. tuti baobao bao.
19. i'm thankful for ray because he vacuums his room without me having to ask him to do it, when i start sneezing.
20. i'm thankful for ray because he is disgusted by my boobs. he thinks they belong to him and him alone.
and lastly, i'm thankful for ray because he makes me smile, just by thinking about him. ^^
i love my darling boyfriend, even though he makes me completely exasperated when he goes into that hardcore gaming mode of his. i love my darling boyfriend, and i'm going to sleep now, hoping that i dream of him tonight.
a little flower blossoms in my fluttery little heart each day you hug me the way i do. and if you'd hug me every day for the rest of the year, i'll have the biggest and nicest bouquet i can ever get.
Wednesday, February 13, 2008
背影
i love this song so much i have been listening to it on loop for the past few weeks..
(i think the mtv is not out yet. but oh well.)
三公分阳光 三公分空气
堵在眼前像一面玻璃
挡住了你表情 剩下只有脚印
一直向前走 走不完距离
一直向后退不出回忆
很高兴有心事 帮我困住自己
你头发上淡淡青草香气
变成了风才能和我相遇
你的目光 蒸发成云
再下成雨我才能够靠近
感谢我不可以 住进你的眼睛
所以才能拥抱你的背影
有再多的遗憾 用来牢牢记住
不完美的所有美丽
感谢我不可以 拥抱你的背影
所以才能变成你的背影
躲在安静角落 不用你回头看
不用珍惜
我怀里所有温暖的空气
变成风也不敢和你相遇
我的心事 蒸发成云
再下成雨却舍不得淋湿你
感谢我不可以 住进你的眼睛
所以才能拥抱你的背影
有再多的遗憾 用来牢牢记住
不完美的所有美丽
感谢我不可以 拥抱你的背影
所以才能变成你的背影
躲在安静角落 不用你回头看
不用珍惜
感谢我不可以拥抱你的背影
所以才能变成你的背影
躲在安静角落如果你回头看
不用在意
wat a lovely lovely song for losers.
(i think the mtv is not out yet. but oh well.)
三公分阳光 三公分空气
堵在眼前像一面玻璃
挡住了你表情 剩下只有脚印
一直向前走 走不完距离
一直向后退不出回忆
很高兴有心事 帮我困住自己
你头发上淡淡青草香气
变成了风才能和我相遇
你的目光 蒸发成云
再下成雨我才能够靠近
感谢我不可以 住进你的眼睛
所以才能拥抱你的背影
有再多的遗憾 用来牢牢记住
不完美的所有美丽
感谢我不可以 拥抱你的背影
所以才能变成你的背影
躲在安静角落 不用你回头看
不用珍惜
我怀里所有温暖的空气
变成风也不敢和你相遇
我的心事 蒸发成云
再下成雨却舍不得淋湿你
感谢我不可以 住进你的眼睛
所以才能拥抱你的背影
有再多的遗憾 用来牢牢记住
不完美的所有美丽
感谢我不可以 拥抱你的背影
所以才能变成你的背影
躲在安静角落 不用你回头看
不用珍惜
感谢我不可以拥抱你的背影
所以才能变成你的背影
躲在安静角落如果你回头看
不用在意
wat a lovely lovely song for losers.
Tuesday, February 12, 2008
cny 2008
i get a little pek chek looking at myself writing in point form. so yes, this is the third time i'm editing this already. nobody edits their entries the way i do. honestly, nobody cares.
well i've got nothing spectacular to blog about this year's cny because firstly, i stupidly clicked on 'delete' instead of 'send' while i was bluetoothing the pictures from the phone to my lappie. will get me a digicam soon. grrrrr.
and so you wont get to see me in my ugly center-parting hair (because i spent like 4 days at baby's house, with no hair dryer or straightener to use after wash). speaking of which, you've not seen the highlights. and speaking of speaking of whiches, happened to bump into this lousy friend of mine, who after which, asked me when i'm going to dye my hair.
didnt i already tell you that i didnt think my highlights were 'wa' enough? oh well. i dont think i'm going to bleach my hair afterall though. i dont like the way it looked on her. yala. i read her blog. because a long long time ago, she blogged something about my didi being cute. and i've been reading it sporadically ever since.
collected $500++ in ang paos this year, of which a substantial amount has been used to pay up my debts (why did i ever start spending on credit.) and the rest are in my untouchable account. in case you start thinking that $500++ is alot, my mother won the said amount in a day's mahjong. she played thrice, and you can imagine the amount she won in total. obviously, she didnt win $500 in all 3 days. but my mother being my mother, has not lost in mahjong for a long time.
should really persuade her to stay for cny more often.
oh, i spent 4 straight days at baby's house. to be exact, i spent 3 days at his place, because the first day, we slept over at my place. that was when i kind of lost my temper on him and we ended up following me back to my place. actually, i lost my temper on the situation, not really on him per se. or on anyone for that matter. but it doesnt make much of a difference because he's on the losing end either way. i think his friends hate me. shall bar myself from joining them in future, for their do-nothing, wait wait wait wait wait, gaming sessions.
and we spent the remaining 3 days (tts saturday, sunday and monday) playing our new rogue characters on wow.
i'm sibeh addicted to wow now, which i wonder if its good or bad. well, for one, my US$15 per month will be well-spent. and i know it eats into my readings time. shucks, i better head to school already. skipped one tutorial because i spent too long in the bathroom, waking myself up from having only 4 hours of sleep. (wow wow wow wow wow.)
till when i have more things to blog about.
well i've got nothing spectacular to blog about this year's cny because firstly, i stupidly clicked on 'delete' instead of 'send' while i was bluetoothing the pictures from the phone to my lappie. will get me a digicam soon. grrrrr.
and so you wont get to see me in my ugly center-parting hair (because i spent like 4 days at baby's house, with no hair dryer or straightener to use after wash). speaking of which, you've not seen the highlights. and speaking of speaking of whiches, happened to bump into this lousy friend of mine, who after which, asked me when i'm going to dye my hair.
didnt i already tell you that i didnt think my highlights were 'wa' enough? oh well. i dont think i'm going to bleach my hair afterall though. i dont like the way it looked on her. yala. i read her blog. because a long long time ago, she blogged something about my didi being cute. and i've been reading it sporadically ever since.
collected $500++ in ang paos this year, of which a substantial amount has been used to pay up my debts (why did i ever start spending on credit.) and the rest are in my untouchable account. in case you start thinking that $500++ is alot, my mother won the said amount in a day's mahjong. she played thrice, and you can imagine the amount she won in total. obviously, she didnt win $500 in all 3 days. but my mother being my mother, has not lost in mahjong for a long time.
should really persuade her to stay for cny more often.
oh, i spent 4 straight days at baby's house. to be exact, i spent 3 days at his place, because the first day, we slept over at my place. that was when i kind of lost my temper on him and we ended up following me back to my place. actually, i lost my temper on the situation, not really on him per se. or on anyone for that matter. but it doesnt make much of a difference because he's on the losing end either way. i think his friends hate me. shall bar myself from joining them in future, for their do-nothing, wait wait wait wait wait, gaming sessions.
and we spent the remaining 3 days (tts saturday, sunday and monday) playing our new rogue characters on wow.
i'm sibeh addicted to wow now, which i wonder if its good or bad. well, for one, my US$15 per month will be well-spent. and i know it eats into my readings time. shucks, i better head to school already. skipped one tutorial because i spent too long in the bathroom, waking myself up from having only 4 hours of sleep. (wow wow wow wow wow.)
till when i have more things to blog about.
Wednesday, February 6, 2008
wrong kind of tao bio.
my mother and i tio tao bio. very sian. somemore i'm wearing a white dress tomorrow. if there's going to be a stain, it will be very obvious. i dont want to wear a japanese flag on my butt.
hais.
hais.
1 year.
happy birthday to you
happy birthday to bibubao
happy birthday to us
many many more years for us.
Monday, February 4, 2008
spring cleaning - completed. ^^
when baby sent me home yesterday, mummy invited him over to join us for the reunion lunch/dinner (she's not made up her mind yet), and she offered to double stitch baby's new year clothes for him. her sudden change of attitude towards baby might have something to do with the fact that didi has been blatantly accusing me of bullying my boyfriend, which i do not. even if i did, raymond tan is proving to be increasingly resistant to my bullying antics. nothing seem to work on him anymore. in fact, i think he's starting to retaliate already.
so yesterday, all of us were helping mummy spring clean and rearrange the furniture in the living room. thereafter, she coerced didi and me into clearing up our messy rooms already. i was dead tired by then and contemplated doing it on wednesday, when i'm back from meeting with cynthia and kiah yin, and before reunion dinner/lunch. i then proceeded to watch heroes and play wahjong. when i finally dozed off, it was morning already.
anyway, at 11am this morning, while i was happily roaming around, hand in hand with my prince charming (who is currently jay singing 蒲公英的約定) in the land where the sun radiates happiness for eternity, and the birds chirp a chorus of delightful jingles, the flowers bounce with cheerful spirits . . . . . .
so yes, i was dreaming. and while i was dreaming my happy dream (and drooling on my pillow), my mother snapped at my brother for leaving his room in a mess and not finish clearing before he went off. so i dragged my silly ass off the bed and spent the last 4 hours of this very cold and very windy and extremely sleep-inducing monday morning finishing up my spring cleaning. only 3 small bags of rubbish, surprisingly. i forgot to take the before-cleaning, but here's the finished product (clickable, because i lazy to remove the links).
my new bookshelf.
ah fang, my entire cd collection is at the bottom left, and there's one more stack behind the first one.
wardrobe and clothes rack.
and that's after throwing away 2 big bags of clothes, and giving some (nicer ones) to my cousin.
cabinet. my undies compartment has never been this neat, and its only because i threw out like more than 10 sets. i honestly think i've thrown more than i've bought this year, which is good.
its amazing how i stuff like close to 20 bras into that tiny space there. so nice.
and this, my friend, is my proudest proudest accomplishment. the one i've been dreading the whole fucking year, which i've finally cleared out today.
.
.
.
.
tadar!!
you see that ugly brown table on the right, on which the tv is sitting on? that whole thing has been cleared out, and i'll be throwing it out soon. the tv is going to be on the tv console at the 'hole in the table where the chair is supposed to be at' and i'm going to karang guni the vcd player. ^^
very happy sitting among the fruits of my labour.
*smirks*
caught sweeney todd with baby and alan over the weekends and it was super nice. its funny how alan rickman (professor snape) seems so compatible (for lack of a better word, because my stomach is growling from hunger) with that dirty, dirty, pre-industrialised europe. he was that disgustingly rich judge who stole johnny depp's wife and daughter. (very alike that rich man he played in perfume.) maybe hiro nakamura transported him straight from the sewers there.
i'm completely in love with hiro nakamura now that i've started watching heroes. so cute. hehe.
i also almost went to buy jay's concert poster from yesasia, which would have cost me $30++ (including shipping). that was after watching the concert dvd. i swear against my bolster that i am going the next time he comes. completely regret not having gone.
shall go bath already. damn hungry. and damn itching from wahjong. all didi's fault for intro-ing me that website. blah...
so yesterday, all of us were helping mummy spring clean and rearrange the furniture in the living room. thereafter, she coerced didi and me into clearing up our messy rooms already. i was dead tired by then and contemplated doing it on wednesday, when i'm back from meeting with cynthia and kiah yin, and before reunion dinner/lunch. i then proceeded to watch heroes and play wahjong. when i finally dozed off, it was morning already.
anyway, at 11am this morning, while i was happily roaming around, hand in hand with my prince charming (who is currently jay singing 蒲公英的約定) in the land where the sun radiates happiness for eternity, and the birds chirp a chorus of delightful jingles, the flowers bounce with cheerful spirits . . . . . .
so yes, i was dreaming. and while i was dreaming my happy dream (and drooling on my pillow), my mother snapped at my brother for leaving his room in a mess and not finish clearing before he went off. so i dragged my silly ass off the bed and spent the last 4 hours of this very cold and very windy and extremely sleep-inducing monday morning finishing up my spring cleaning. only 3 small bags of rubbish, surprisingly. i forgot to take the before-cleaning, but here's the finished product (clickable, because i lazy to remove the links).
my new bookshelf.
ah fang, my entire cd collection is at the bottom left, and there's one more stack behind the first one.
wardrobe and clothes rack.
and that's after throwing away 2 big bags of clothes, and giving some (nicer ones) to my cousin.
cabinet. my undies compartment has never been this neat, and its only because i threw out like more than 10 sets. i honestly think i've thrown more than i've bought this year, which is good.
its amazing how i stuff like close to 20 bras into that tiny space there. so nice.
and this, my friend, is my proudest proudest accomplishment. the one i've been dreading the whole fucking year, which i've finally cleared out today.
tadar!!
you see that ugly brown table on the right, on which the tv is sitting on? that whole thing has been cleared out, and i'll be throwing it out soon. the tv is going to be on the tv console at the 'hole in the table where the chair is supposed to be at' and i'm going to karang guni the vcd player. ^^
very happy sitting among the fruits of my labour.
*smirks*
caught sweeney todd with baby and alan over the weekends and it was super nice. its funny how alan rickman (professor snape) seems so compatible (for lack of a better word, because my stomach is growling from hunger) with that dirty, dirty, pre-industrialised europe. he was that disgustingly rich judge who stole johnny depp's wife and daughter. (very alike that rich man he played in perfume.) maybe hiro nakamura transported him straight from the sewers there.
i'm completely in love with hiro nakamura now that i've started watching heroes. so cute. hehe.
i also almost went to buy jay's concert poster from yesasia, which would have cost me $30++ (including shipping). that was after watching the concert dvd. i swear against my bolster that i am going the next time he comes. completely regret not having gone.
shall go bath already. damn hungry. and damn itching from wahjong. all didi's fault for intro-ing me that website. blah...
Friday, February 1, 2008
小松小柏
my mother say i used to like 小松小柏 when i was younger, like 3 or 4 years old. and that i kept asking her to get me the cassette for one of their songs.
小松小柏.
i dont even know they sing/sang/sung.
小松小柏.
i dont even know they sing/sang/sung.
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