being with ray has made me realise that i'm not exactly an occasions person.
let's see.. we didnt 'celebrate' both the valentine's we spent together. we werent too bothered with giving each other birthday surprises. i fell asleep before the christmas feast on the eve. we counted down to 2008 playing wow.
being with ray has also made me realise that i'm a presents person. ^^
i like buying things for baby ray. and honestly, i dont need an occasion to do that. if there's nothing to buy, there's nothing to buy. i hate the feeling of having to buy him something because its freaking whatever day.
if there's something that the stingy pig has been dying to get for himself, i'll buy it. if i see something i think looks nice on him, i'll buy it. and i'll buy it even though there's no occasion. and on an occasion, all that matters to me, is that we spend it together.
i like to buy baby presents because i like to see his super cute childish happy look. i like to buy baby presents because it irks me whenever he takes a fancy to something and subsequently refuse to get it because of this and because of that (its really because he thinks its not worth spending his money on non-gaming/computer-related stuff). most of all, i like to buy baby presents because it makes me feel good.
somehow, it makes me feel as though buying him stuff makes up for all the times i lose my temper on him. its happening less frequently now, but its happening on a much greater magnitude. the last time i lost my temper, that time on cny, had me crying hysterically for an hour on that pavement opposite his house, while his friends waited at home. and i happily whisked my boyfriend home with me after that. now you know why it makes sense if his friends all hate the bitch that is me.
and i suddenly feel like doing a 'i'm thankful for ray because..'
well, here goes.. ^^
1. i'm thankful for ray because he has never ever ever lost his patience on me, raised his voice at me, got angry with me. that's despite all those times i screamed at him, walked out on him, lashed out at him in front of his friends.
2. i'm thankful for ray because he always gives in to my hug-hug, smell-smell, ya bian-bian requests.
3. i'm thankful for ray because he will hug me to sleep, pat me to sleep, hold my hand till i sleep, if that's what i wanted.
4. i'm thankful for ray because he shoves his smelly armpits in my face after bathing.
5. i'm thankful for ray because he sends me up the lift, hugs me in the lift, makes funny faces so that i smile when we say goodbye.
6. i'm thankful for ray because he comes to my rescue when we play wow, even though it kills him.
7. i'm thankful for ray because he indulges in my 'big kiss, small kiss, super super big and super super small kiss' requests when we talk at night.
8. i'm thankful for ray because he sms greets me in the mornings. every mornings. and when he doesnt sms me, he greets me with a kiss.
9. i'm thankful for ray because he makes an effort to meet me after work whenever i ask for it. and i ask for it quite alot.
10. i'm thankful for ray because he accompanies me to 7-11 in the middle of the night whenever i get a snack craving.
11. i'm thankful for ray because he cooks us 2 packets of maggi mee with eggs, and ends up eating more than half of everything. and he knows i'm trying to make him fat. and he cleans up after that.
12. i'm thankful for ray because he lets me rub his growing tummy even though he hates it.
13. i'm thankful for ray because he has become immune to me groping his butt in public. and i've been groping it more and more.
14. i'm thankful for ray because he attacks my boobs when i least expects it.
15. i'm thankful for ray because we can orh pi sai and fart smelly farts together in the car on our way home
16. i'm thankful for ray because he lets me lie on his lap and nap when he drives me home in the morning and i'll always prefer a van.
17. i'm thankful for ray because the back of his neck smells nice.
18. i'm thankful for ray because he babytalks with me. tuti baobao bao.
19. i'm thankful for ray because he vacuums his room without me having to ask him to do it, when i start sneezing.
20. i'm thankful for ray because he is disgusted by my boobs. he thinks they belong to him and him alone.
and lastly, i'm thankful for ray because he makes me smile, just by thinking about him. ^^
i love my darling boyfriend, even though he makes me completely exasperated when he goes into that hardcore gaming mode of his. i love my darling boyfriend, and i'm going to sleep now, hoping that i dream of him tonight.
a little flower blossoms in my fluttery little heart each day you hug me the way i do. and if you'd hug me every day for the rest of the year, i'll have the biggest and nicest bouquet i can ever get.
