14 months and i have no pictures to show you how supposedly happy i am. not surprising considering the status of my relationship with ray. he has himself admitted that he's boyfriend material, not husband material.
still, i'm thankful for the love, the care and the patience he's been showering on me. i know i'm incredibly hard to handle, it must be terribly difficult for him at times. i just dont understand why, if i can tell myself that ray is doing everything in his capacity to make me happy, that i still fail to superimpose a smile on my face.
i guess i'm really difficult.
happy 14 months, baby. i really hope things could move a little. if not for the better, than at least we'd know better than to continue wasting our efforts.
if being nice to me is the only thing that sustains the relationship, then perhaps there really isnt a point in keeping it going. its ridiculous when i get pissed off at you, for the simplest reasons.
