*hidden entry #11*
i seem to have re-entered that 'waiting for him' phase. seeing him, hearing his voice, knowing his nearby. all these little nondescript nonsense just stir up that whole whirlpool of emotions.
like when i saw him earlier, and he was wearing that baby milo tee i chose for him back in hk. does it bring back the same memories for him, as it did for me? do all those things even remind him of me anymore?
i miss him. or maybe i just missing having someone around. i miss hugging him. or maybe i just missing hugging. it almost seem as though all i need is a boyfriend figure. but i know that's not the case. i just want him.
the heartache is back. the missing is back. that whole whirlpool of emotions is stirring again. its a washing machine in my head tonight.
