*hidden entry #9*
3 weeks since the break up. today is the 11th, and it should have been our 11th week too. i've decided to let go. it was hard, having to hear/read that he no longer knew why he loved me. so it was me, who said those ugly stuff, me who had to push him to his limits, but hearing those words, broke my heart really.
overheard snippets of his conversation with fzy and pwj at work. i think they were talking about us? i dont know. part of me wanted to know what they were talking about, the same part that is still clinging on to that miniscule hope of getting back together again. but for the most part, i was just trying to ignore them, ignore him, move on with my life.
it feels so empty. i miss him so much, still. -_-"
when will i finally move on?
