but anyhow, mambo last night was incredibly shiok, especially considering that i completely had no feel a few days prior to it. it was so much fun in fact, that the aching feel has been made negligible and i totally just want to go again. i'm actually pretending to not notice the blue black that's on my knee.
yes, so mambo-ing was made fun by the presence of 4 chiongsters. ^^
meh meh's alter-ego -- chipmunk!!
the damn~~ on gw, who was there jumping with me at the end when cl, meh meh and ah fang all started waving their little white flags.
and weiming! heh. the sai king who looks completely sai now with my damn zai specs. ^^
here is my pre-clubbing chio-ness. super good hair-day and all..
and i just realized that my uneven eyelids are getting worse. it makes me look as though my right eye is a lot smaller than the left, when its the eyelid's problem. urgh~~~
and the post-clubbing cui-ness. -_-"
i completely want to go again la. boohoo~~
anyways, its 2 weeks. could have been 10. and today, that feeling that i've been refusing to come to terms with, that little uncertainly has been driven home. today, i came to learn of a direct relationship between what i feel for him, and the non-existent fake-ness which i've been falsefully holding on to.
and as of now, both are diminishing. it simply isnt the same anymore. i still want to believe, but its becoming increasingly difficult to do so.
i keep telling people i dont give a damn anymore. i keep creating that false impression that it doesnt matter anymore. but it does. even though its definitely getting weaker, it still does. i still do miss *him. that him, from my memory, which is gradually fading from my feelings, from the heart.
oh. and kk says i sounded nice singing this,
muahaha.. damn shiok.
oh oh. and ah fang, this is the real diaog diaog diaog~~
muahaha..
