死心了。
是时候放弃了。
there were many entries i wrote in the days that passed since the break up.
entries in which i lamented on how much i missed him.
entries in which i sobbed my misery into.
entries which had me crying on the way to work, crying while i slept, crying when i woke.
entries which saw me laughing my misery away, smiling at every other joke, enjoying myself with every person.
entries that witnessed me making that decision to wait for him.
and now, these entries will be lost forever. because i've decided to give up. there's no point anymore. and no, i'm not sad as i blog right now. somehow, kk and i both saw it coming, somehow, i've already told kk that i was going to give up. hearing from the horse's mouth, hearing that he no longer has feelings for me, confirming what we knew was coming, made it alot easier. i guess i was mentally prepared already.
am i going to move on? yea, i definitely am.
am i going to get involved in yet another meaningless relationship? no, i dont think so.
i loved him. i really did. as much as people tend to think i dont, i really did. i loved him more with every passing day, and eventually, i loved him with all of me. and he loved me too. but it was not meant to be. it just wasnt meant to be.
