你害怕幸福 短暂一秒就崩落
分开是一种解脱 让你好好的想过
我想要的那片天空 你是不是能够给我
你说我给你太多 却不能给我什麽
分不清激情承诺永恒或迷惑
爱情是一道伤口 我们各自苦痛
沉默是我最後温柔 是因为我太爱你
i'm completely blown away by the way events are turning out. i wish there was something i could do to make it better for them both, and for myself. i wish i knew what is wrong now. but, it seems, the more i try, the worse it gets.
i've always only wanted us to be happy, wanted him to be happy.
it wasnt easy, pretending to be happy, just so ppl might be more able to absolve him of whatever blame they wanted to place on him. it wasnt easy, pretending to be alright, when i'm not at all. it wasnt easy having this sense of contentment, infused with the stingingly fresh pricks at my heart, course through me each and every time i saw him, heard him, missed him.
i've more or less walked past that stage. i dont think i can allow myself to retract and fall into that abyss of misery all over again. i dont think i will.
feelings fade. feelings are still there though they faded. feelings take time to grow, trust takes time to build.
you pry open my wound to pick at the rawness of the flesh. and still, i cant find it my heart to even want to associate you with the pain that i'm feeling. i know its not your fault, i want to be able to do something to dispel that confusion you're clouded in. i want to do something to make you happy, so that i can be happy. but everything i do, you push me further away.
你要我安静的走开吗？
