gaming

my boyfriend is an avid gamer. give him any game and he picks it up in five minutes. he's broken almost all the high scores in the 3 pages worth of games on my phone, he kisses his facebook games goodnight before he climbs into bed with me, and at this very moment, i'm staring at his face, contorted in concentration over the webcam, as he zealously games away.

he's mentioned it a few times now, that he's worried his gaming habits might put me off. bad experience? perhaps once upon an ancient time, they were a source for quarrels between him and his past loves?

i dont know how to assure him that i'm perfectly fine with him sacrificing sleeping time to indulge in his gaming foibles. to assert that it doesnt affect me one bit would be a lie. occasionally, i do get upset when i'm treading the threshold between sleep and wake, and he continues dawdling in front of the computer.

but then again, i do understand that people have different means of shedding behind the stresses at the end of a day. and for abc, gaming eases away some of the tension that builds up over the course of his day. and in all honesty, i really think forcing him to end his gaming sessions prematurely by throwing tantrums will just make things worse for both of us, and make us upset at each other. its not like he's sleeping with someone else, so really, what's the big deal anyway?

moreover, i never had a problem with ray's gaming antics, so i dont see why i should get upset with abc now. in fact, i got so influenced by ray that i ended up skipping my lectures and tutorials to deluge myself in the made up world of wow. i miss my meehoonkuey paladin as i'm typing now. all the moolah and the time spent levelling her up.


so yes, go ahead and play. and stop worrying if i'm upset by it. you dont need my permission for such things. it gets a little frustrating each time you ask if its okay with me if you went to play, because somehow, its almost as if i'm unreasonable and all, that i might want to stop you from doing something you love and that you've always been doing.

or maybe i'm just a freaking nice and understanding gf, who cooks for the bf when he's hungry, washes up after he's done, and lets him do whatever he wants to, without having to worry about me.

i will voice it out, when i start feeling the slightest tinge of un-love. so in the meantime, dont worry too much about me feeling neglected. besides, i want to believe you, that you'll know where to draw the line. i love you, smelly fart, let's never take each other for granted. missing you loads because i cant hug you now.


I wish a falling star could fall forever
And sparkle through the clouds and stormy weather
And in the darkness of the night
The star would shine a glimmering light
And hover above our love

Please hold me close and whisper that you love me
And promise that your dreams are only of me
When you are near, everything’s clear
Earth is a beautiful heaven
Always I hope that we follow the star
And be forever floating above

I know a falling star can’t fall forever
But let’s never stop falling in love