I convinced ABC that he should come over at 3am this morning, instead of meeting me after work today and staying over. I honestly felt it was better that way, because the shift that he took over from CYS had a returning cab to my area. I kinda find it hard to disregard the comments he that he tells me he's getting, each time he requests to change his destination. They aren't exactly mean. I just don't like to feel as though I'm inconveniencing other people. (Major pet peeve.)
So he's not coming over later. There's nothing to rejoice about, is there? I casually whined about how long it would take before I could see him again. I thought it was casual because I do it all the time, but ABC thought I was serious about it, and he concluded that I'm not taking his not coming over too well. He then went on to tell me that he would like to have his own time and space as and when, and it feels as though he's complaining that I've been too time demanding on him, which I may have, but I've never insisted upon it.
Earlier, he suddenly remembered that he left his shoes at my place. Shoes that he'd be needing tomorrow. He then went on to tell me that it wouldn't take that long before I could see him again. He suggested coming over in the morning to collect his shows, and asked if I'm happy that I'll see him in less than 24 hours.
I. Don't. Think. So.
因为没办法才来 meet 我，有什么好高兴的？
So now he thinks I've changed. Am I supposed to be happy when my boyfriend tells me he needs his own space and time but is coming to meet because not by his own accord, but because of some blunder he accidentally made?
I'm happy to see you. I always am. But how can I be, when you explicitly state that you'd rather not?
And now he's pissed. And he's going to buy a new pair later. So it's my fault for being too sensitive. Is that it?
I'm pissed too. Who's changed?! I really don't want to make it a big deal because I agree that he spends alot (maybe too much) time here with me. It's a fact that I think I've mentioned all too often. I understand if he wants to have his own time, if he wants to stay home because his mom and grandma haven't seen him in ages. And when I say I understand, it means I'm ok with it. It means I'm not exacty upset by it. BUT does that mean I'm happy about it? No it doesn't.
Enough is never really enough. I don't subscribe to the belief that people get sick of their other halves, because I kinda think that if they do, then maybe that other half isn't really the right half. Every minute that I don't get to spend with you, I wish I could. (Ok, kua zhang-ing. Maybe every FEW hours.)
I'm getting increasingly upset by the situation now. Will blog again. :((
I hate it when ppl make me feel like I'm being an inconvenience. And he just did that.
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