after so long, HK!

I seriously think my longest hiatus from blogging (I think this is my longest yet) has eliminated the last of my meagre blog readers.

I have been too fucking lazy to blog.

I'm in an ultra bad mood now, which makes for excellent blogging time. Anger begets literary finesse. Anyhow, I'm fucking pissed off, because the house has become a smoking din for my INCONSIDERATE RELATIVES.

Fucking irritated. Mummy limits her smoking in the toilet and the kitchen. Didi smokes out of the window. And you fucking walk all over the house with your fucking cigarette. And I've not started on how you fucking leave the fan, the TV, the air-con, the lights on when you leave the house. Times like these are why I simply cannot make myself smile and greet you, like I know I should be doing.

Yes, I'd rather be stuck-up than have to wear a fucking mask at home. Isn't it bad enough that I have to bear with assholes at work?! That boot-licking, conniving bitch. I don't want to get started on her.


ABC just called, he's on his way over and it eradicated the last traces of my unhappiness. :)

Yes, and his call reminded me that I have every intention to blog about HONG KONG.

I think I must have complained to a thousand and one person on how those people bailed us out, so I shall not repeat that story. In fact, they've almost completely disappeared from my happy recollection of our first overseas trip. (Much of my magnanimity had to do with the fact that I think we've gotten a better deal. I'm usually a grudge-bearing bitch.)

I must have worried myself sick prior to the trip. I kept thinking it might spell the end of my relationship with ABC had we quarreled. I'm not saying that we didn't, but baby has been ultra patient with me before, during and after the trip. I guess I've also gotta say that it was a blessing in disguise, because our anger was mostly directed at those other people, which left us with lesser time to get upset with each other.

The trip had been better than I dared to expect. If only the weather could be better.

And we brought moony with us!! Fang thinks moony is smelly. I don't know why she thinks that, because he is not. :)








Those were at our beloved Changi airport. At 0715 because our flight was delayed an hour. Fucking boarding gate was right at the end of the place.

Oh! We had to take connecting buses from the planes to the airport (vice versa) at HK. I wonder if it's a Jetstar thing, being budget and everything. That, and the irritatingly constricted seats (no leg space and all). I'm never taking budget again. Of course, that will only come true if I come into an unexpected fortune, which is unlikely. :(

And Disneyland!! So our 1 night at Disneyland cost more than the rest of the 6 nights, but it was worth every single cent! (Maybe with the exception of that lousy and expensive lunch we had at some stupid Cheena restaurant in the hotel.) I enjoyed myself to the max. Totally regret that I didn't at least convince Fang to go with me the last time round.




They had sofa seats in the train, and it was empty enough for baby and I to have almost the entire cabin to ourselves. If it wasn't just one stop away, if we didn't have our luggage, I might have explored the entire train. The subsequent rides were kinda crowded already.


There were bronze figurines of Disney characters everywhere, and I think we had Donald and Snow White nearest to us. So now you know Snow White looks worse in sepia than she does in vivid colours.


Bloody raining when we reached Disneyland. Kinda spoiled our moods, especially when the hotel recep told us the fireworks might get cancelled due to the rain (and it did). But since we got the stay2day promo thingy, which allows entry in Disneyland for 2 consecutive days, we went anyway.

And behold our room. They didn't have the King bed for the normal garden-viewing rooms anymore, so we opted for an upgrade to the fantasia suite! :)


The huge bed! And it's kinda irritating in an endearing way because baby still managed to push me to the edge. It's mad comfy too, and we were both exhausted right before check-out. We jumped on it for damn long, fulfilling those childhood fantasies. No grandma to scream at me for jumping on the bed, and I could keep at it for as long as I want! :):)


Massive, massive bathroom. I think it's bigger than my bedroom!!


And the mad cute toiletries, which I stole damn alot. I actually intended to give these out as souvenirs! Shall give one set to Fang! Hahaha!! :)


THE JACUZZI BATHTUB, which was really what convinced me to pay that extra $100 for the upgrade. Jacuzzi bubble bath! If only I'd stay 2 nights, instead of 1. :(


And ya, the lift. Fine, I posted only because I super like this picture. :)

Off we go to ... ...


DISNEYLAND!!

So I said we had the stay2day passes. We actually had a choice to forfeit the tickets and come back on another day given the bad weather, but the rain looked to be slightly better, so we took our chances and went with the original plan. That crazy typhoon-induced rain was mad fucking irritating!! The fucking downpour came in intervals, short intervals. So it could be nice and all for 10 minutes, and then it rained for 5 minutes, and that cycle continued all the way into the night, until they had to cancel the bloody fireworks. :(


Baby was so pissed off by the rain, he went to kick, I don't know, Saturn?


We took the only thrilling ride in the theme park. Baby claims to have been on this thing enough times to remember all the twists and turns. It was so dark for night-blinded me, that I couldn't see shit, and came out dizzy and all.

Blah, and I slipped at the teacup, didn't fall, but it gave me a huge blue black, which remained for the entire HK trip.



We got really excited at the sight of the magical carousel. Until about 3 seconds after we got on, when it started to become boring.




And that was the end of our first day, which was somewhat marred by the sucky weather, and the cancellation of the fireworks. Sigh, and I've been told by every freaking person, that they are damn nice. :(


Ok, I'm tired and my bf is sitting behind me, which is a huge distraction. And he's hungry, which makes me feel kinda obligated to do something about it (or at least, pretend to do something about it). So I shall continue with our second day in Disneyland and the rest of our HK trip another time. I hope the time comes soon!!

baby, baby ~~

You're so good to me, baby baby

I want to lock you up in my closet
Where no one's around
I want to put your hand in my pocket
Because you're allowed

I want to drive you into the corner
And kiss you without a sound
I want to stay this way forever
I'll say it loud

Now you're in and you can't get out

You make me so hot, make me wanna drop
You're so ridiculous, I can barely stop
I can hardly breathe, you make me wanna scream
You're so fabulous, you're so good to me, baby baby
You're so good to me, baby baby

I can make you feel all better
Just take it in
And I can show you all the places
You've never been

And I can make you say everything
That you never said
And I will let you do anything
Again and again

Now you're in and you can't get out

You make me so hot, make me wanna drop
You're so ridiculous, I can barely stop
I can hardly breathe, you make me wanna scream
You're so fabulous, you're so good to me, baby baby
You're so good to me, baby baby

Kiss me gently
Always I know
Hold me, love me
Don't ever go, yeah

You make me so hot, make me wanna drop
You're so ridiculous, I can barely stop
I can hardly breathe, you make me wanna scream
You're so fabulous, you're so good to me

You make me so hot, make me wanna drop
You're so ridiculous, I can barely stop
I can hardly breathe, you make me wanna scream
You're so fabulous, you're so good to me, baby baby
You're so good to me, baby baby
You're so good

Boyfriend ~~

I think my boyfriend thinks I don't love him anymore. And I think I've become lazy when it comes to loving him.

Like how I don't hug him when I sleep these days. Like how I forget to smell him now and then. Like how I didn't think of hugging him when he leaves for work.

My boyfriend doesn't realize he kicks me in his sleep. When he's asleep, he loves to throw his leg over mine.

My boyfriend doesn't realize he reeks of that stale air con from pools when he comes home from work. He forgets that he has begun to drool in his sleep and all his sleeping tees smell gross.

My boyfriend doesn't realize he hasn't been hugging me back when I hug him.

And my boyfriend definitely doesn't realize I tap on the night light and smile at our photos before I go to sleep. :)


I can't stop thinking about Disneyland and HK, and all the things I want to buy, all the food I want to eat, all the places I want to go, all the sights I want to see. And my boyfriend will be with me, every freaking moment I'm there. :)

Yes, the boyfriend has to work in less than an hour, and he.. is probably still sleeping. -.-"

ASS

It took too long
It took too long
It took to long for you to call back
And normally I would just forget that
Except for the fact it was my birthday
My stupid birthday

I played along
I played along
I played along it rolled right off my back
Obviously my armor was cracked
What kind of a boyfriend would forget that?
Who would forget that?

The type of guy who doesn't see
What he has until she leaves
Don't let me go
Cause without me, you know you're lost
Wise up now or pay the cost
Soon you will know

You're not livin' till you're livin'
Livin' with me
You're not winnin' till you're winnin'
Winnin' me
You're not gettin' till you're gettin'
Gettin' to me
You're not livin' till you're livin'
Livin' for me

This is the potential breakup song
Our album needs just one
Oh baby please
Please tell me

We got along
We got along
We got along until you did that
Now all I want is just my stuff back
Do you get that?
Let me repeat that
I want my stuff back

You can send it in a box
I don't care just drop it off
I won't be home
Cause without me, you know you're lost
Minus you I'm better off
Soon you will know

You're not livin' till you're livin'
Livin' with me
You're not winnin' till you're winnin'
Winnin' me
You're not gettin' till you're gettin'
Gettin' to me
You're not livin' till you're livin'
Livin' for me

You can try, you can try
You know I know it'd be a lie
Without me you're gonna die
So you better think clearly, clearly
Before you nearly, nearly
Mess up the situation that your gonna miss dearly, dearly
C'mon

You're not livin' till you're livin'
Livin' with me
You're not winnin' till you're winnin'
Winnin' me
You're not gettin' till you're gettin'
Gettin' to me
You're not livin' till you're livin'
Livin' for me

This is the potential breakup song
Our album needs just one
Oh baby please
Please tell me

This is the potential make-up song
please just admit you're wrong
Which will it be?
Which will it be?

Champagne!

My face is like, how very round, and I'm still eating non-stop. Work has been incredibly demoralising, and eating seems to be the only salvation.

Royce nama champagne rocks, anyway. Almost as much as my häagen dazs rum and raisin love.

Oh, I love my rosy cheeks by the way, and it's definitely getting rosier even though baby doesn't seem to think so. Bleh

And we are going to HK. After all the talk, I've finally gone ahead to book our flight and hotel reservations. Credit card bill has sky-rocketed, and my next pay has just gone down the drain, every single cent of it. Let's hope it's worth. I'm really looking forward to my yoh ji. Yea, the yoh ji was my deciding factor between HK and TW. Can't wait for July!

The stupid bf still owes me my birthday present, and our anniversary is less than a week away. Humph!

My birthday is getting increasingly dull with each passing year. I know I want a quiet affair, but still. At least I had my surprise cake from Ah Fang last year. Stupid bf.

My room.

Fuck. I need to do this again.

It's a complete mess now, and I bet it's going to take longer than 4 fucking hours this time. :(

Baby loves me

I've come to the startling realisation that my assessment of how much baby loves me is in direct relation to the amount of bed space he gives me every morning.

Yesterday, I thought he loved me damn alot. Because the silly boy fell off the bed when I woke him in the morning. He said he wanted to give me more space. :)

Today, I have been thinking that he doesn't love me that much afterall. Because the idiot took up alot of space while he was gaming last night. :(

I hope I feel loved tomorrow.


-- Post From My Darling iPoot

So long~~

Work has been busy. I have been lazy.


Smelly boyfriend moved in not too long ago. Apparently until after his exams end. So far so good. Hugs and kisses everyday. :)

Booked our air tix to HK! Disneyland!! I'm secretly paranoid about the trip. What if we start quarreling?!

Fell sick for the worst time in recent years. Fever for 3 days' straight. MC for 3 days' straight too. I think I've almost maxed out my MC quota for the year already. :(

Shall go nag at the smelly boyfriend to come home early and pack food for me.

Sometimes, somethings are not meant for some people.


Yesterday, I chanced upon a set of my ex-boyfriend's photos with his current love. It made me a little sad, realizing that some of the things that I used to think belong to us (places that we went, things that we did), were stuff that he probably shared with all of his gfs.

And then I realized that I'd stumbled across happiness that was not meant for me to share.


Today, I chanced upon a bunch of photos that belonged to abc and his ex-es and flings. It made me a little mad, realizing that many of the things that I think belong to us (places that we went, things that he did), were stuff that he has previously shared with some of his gfs.

And then I realized that I'd stumbled across happiness that had already turned to dust.

The important thing is his happiness is with me now, so why should I care. :)


I met up with an ex boyfriend for lunch the other day. The SAI king. And it made me a little reminiscent about the old days. (Actually, it was more like I was thinking, what on earth did I see in him back then.) He made me realize that my own memories overlap. The places that I went, and the things that I did.


Over the years, people change, but the change come small, and the change come slow. People probably like doing the same things for awhile. People probably like going the same places for awhile. People probably like eating the same food for awhile. How wrong is it that they want to share these with the love of their lives? I think, none at all. :)


So then ABC, it's made me a little sad knowing that there's a predecessor to this photo, taken at a similar place, with a similar pose, and very likely taken by the same damn phone too.



But I hope when we pass by places like that, I better be the only person you'd even think of taking another picture with.

INSTANT PRINTER

I got so freaking excited when I saw this.



And then I realised, the stupid iPhone bluetooth probably isn't compatible. :(

Depressing

Sigh. It's depressing to look at my entries these days. It's been so long since I last blogged, and worse still, my last few entries are so short, they're negligible.

I MIGHT AS WELL SHUT IT DOWN. :(


Work has been tiring. I don't know why the lethargy refuses to leave me, and it's not like we have alot to do at work. My throat has been a bitch since last Thursday, and my nose is pretty much blocked the entire time too. Yes, I sound super nasal these days. :(


Lionel Messi 4 - Arsenal 1. I don't think we'll win later, without Rooney. :(

This is a depressing post, I should only end it with how I'm feeling now - LIFE SUCKS.

Yuck.

Stupid Drogba and his stupid offside goal. And Macheda actually scoring. What a blah game. :(

My head's still spinning, not as crazily as before I took the power painkiller, but still. Neck's abit sore from the nap. Yes, I took a nap despite waking up at 3pm, no thanks to the upstairs neighbour. Who in the world drags furniture early in the morning till late at night?! My shoulders are aching from the tossing and turning, trying to keep out the noise.

At least baby said he'd be home soon to hug me to sleep. :)


Sigh. Septimus Heap is turning out to be a lousy read, after Percy Jackson and Diary of a Wimpy Kid. I need a new, engaging book! :(

Busy Bee~~

No time to blog, no time to blog, no time to blog.

Overspent, overspent, overspent.

Dinner with Regi, Angie and YiJing was a disaster.
Wonderful food, wonderful company, disastrous aftermath and I had to take MC. -.-"

And then Joycelyn's farewell dinner, which I just came back from. I think I ate too much ice cream, and candy floss.

How to train your dragon tomorrow. :)

I still have prawning with Donald and Ashlee on Saturday.


And we're desperately planning a MJ/KTV next weekend, long weekend.

I desperately want to MJ. Haven't said anything, but I don't want to MJ with baby, because we have different playing styles. Or rather, he's irritated that I don't have one.

I desperately want to sing. And I don't want to sing with baby, because he's pang seh-ed me too many times. 1 is 1 too many, and it stands at 2 already.


Many people I'm supposed to meet for lunch, but I haven't met.

I'm busy. I'm busy. I'm busy.


Genting on my birthday weekend. HK in July. And the girls are pretty excited about BKK in August.

GIANT BUG

A massive, giant bug flew into my room.

AND I KILLED IT.

And I didn't scream at all. Not even when the bugger got too precariously close to where I was sitting.


OMG! 我长大了啦!

(I took a picture of the cursed flyfly. But it seems so completely diminished in size that if I posted it, my heroics would instantly evaporate.)


Back to reading Percy Jackson. It's a good enough read. Love it when baby reads with me, but I've not found a captivating enough story to keep me occupied for more than 30 minutes when he's here. And I think he's irritated because I keep disturbing him.

hot water bags

Hot water bags are super comfortable.

And my bf is the most adorable hot water bag ever. :):)


Silly you. Happy 9 months! :)

You are Everything

I've been thinking quite a fair bit these days. It's like my whole perspective has shifted since that quarrel with the bf a few days ago. I still love baby like crazy, but I'm also more withdrawn and reserved after that incident.

Somehow, during the course of our relationship, baby has become more than just a bf to me. He became more than any of my friends have ever been, at any point in time.

I remember a long time ago, when Suleen and I stuck together while at school, and continued sticking to each other on our home phones after school. I actually can remember her landline till now. These days, I'm attached to my boyfriend continuously, almost in that same way, and more. Baby webcams me when we're both home, because I can't see him.

I remember not so long ago, when Ah Fang's name was constantly at the top of my 'list of recent contacts' because I sms-ed her every time I saw something interesting. Of course, it dwindled when I couldn't reply her messages at 8 am, and I started to worry if my random messages might wake her in the middle of the night. Again, baby stepped in, with the twitter, the whatsapp, the HeyWAY, the other blog, FB and everything else.

I thought that it would be great to have my bf become my best friend. I thought it was nice if I could tell my bf everything, if I should share all my joy, my secrets, my fears and my worries with him.

But I'm thinking twice now. Because slowly and eventually, my life has started to revolve around him.

Each time he walks out during a quarrel, I feel as if I've backed myself into a corner with no where to run, and no one to turn to. The void is so big, I don't know how to handle it. I don't know if I want him to leave, because I can't stand seeing him; or I want him to stay, because I can't stand not seeing him.

It doesn't help, because after pouring out everything to him when we quarrel, he doesn't say anything at all. Our fights are resolved with a hug. Our quarrels, with a kiss. And then the cycle repeats. I never know what he was thinking. I never know how he felt.

I'm scared, because each time we quarrel, my strength falters a little, and my vulnerability grows stronger. Every time we fight, I find that I'm not able to give as much of myself as I used to. And then when I start to love him more again, when I start to pile my hopes up high again, we'd quarrel.

What used to come naturally and easily, has begun to take on that extra consideration. Little things like looking at him while I fall asleep, facing him when he hugs me; these days, I find us back-facing each other before we drift into unconsciousness. Things like whipping out my phone to take pictures in the lift, snapping photos of him when we're eating, camwhoring left-right-center; I find the increment in our photo-count drooping.

I'd love to see my bf as much as possible, but these days, I can no longer look forward to our meetings, and these days, I'm starting to feel that it might be better at times if we didn't meet.

I can see the effort that he's put in to make our relationship better. I know that he loves me. But sometimes, when you take something away, it doesn't mean things can be the same by putting something else back. When you drive up my expectations only to dash them, it doesn't mean springing an unexpected surprise after that will make it the same again. Because it's happened too many times already.

Yes I love my bf. And deep down, I know that baby's given me what hardly anyone has been able to, which is why I don't want to let him go. Ever. But it's getting hard. And I'm no longer sure anymore. And it's killing me because I love him so much And it's killing me because he makes me want to love him even more.


I love you baby, as much as Psyche loved Cupid. And like her, I'm not perfect too. I'm scared, and I doubt. I used to tell you that I'm going to love you a long long time. And now, I really still wish I can just keep loving you, endlessly.

CNY and V Day

I hope your CNY and V Day had been great, because mine passed in a slur of monotonous inactivity.

Sigh. CNY has been boring ever since we stopped going Malaysia, not that I liked it in the first place, but at least there were something to look forward to. For some reason, I've never been able to get along with my cousins very well. Other than the standard pleasantries, I rarely speak to them. I kind of think it's all a-less-than-impeccable play of charades. Maybe that's why mummy stopped going back. That said, I must say, some of my cousins are really nice people. :)

This year is nothing spectacular, as usual. Apart from the ang baos, I've got to admit I don't like it too much when mummy's friends and colleagues come visiting. Instantaneously, the house becomes a smoke hole. Spoiled as I am, I cannot stand the smell of cigarettes, and I certainly don't appreciate having my hair smell like a stale ashtray the entire day, even after shampooing. :(

Baby very generously invited me to go visiting with him next year. Hmmm. Let's see about that. :)


And V Day. I don't remember the last time I actually celebrated V Day. I know, I always say, 'with the right person, everyday can be V Day. But really, it's kind of like a loserish excuse for people who don't celebrate. As time goes by, it's really quite sad when you have nothing memorable to remember by on V Day.

Last year, I ran away to BKK, which counts towards being one of my worst holidays (the other one is obviously Taiwan, because I did nothing, and went nowhere). V Day was spent melting in Chaktuchak, where the blistering hot sun burned away any mood I had for shopping, not that there were alot of things I would have bought.

The year before last, I think I spent it leveling in WOW. See, even Ray, sweet as he was, didn't do anything nice for me on V Day. Similarly, I think that was how we spent the previous one. :(

Oh, I do have the ugly bear that LCS gave me on 2006's V Day. Something he grabbed from a pushcart at NUS before meeting me. Well, as much as it's the thought that counts, I wonder how much thought actually went in to mindlessly grabbing an ugly bear from a pushcart conveniently along the way.


Sigh. I've begun to subscribe to the very commercialized notion of V Day and such. As much as I hope everyday can be worthy of an occasion, it still is completely sickening to not have that memory to indulge in. :(

Still, I guess I'm really glad baby could make it over at all, given that it was, afterall, the first day of the CNY. This year's disappointment ought to be easier to swallow given that even florists and restaurants have also reported a marked dip in their V Day sales. :)

People rarely become their partners' perfect bf or gf. There are lapses in the relationship, when my ability to be patient and understanding falls out of reach. I know I try, even though there have been times aplenty when I feel like I haven't tried hard enough.

Quarrelled with baby the other day. The core of the issue is something we can't run away from. Something I know I need to learn to deal with. I know that baby loves me, I can see the effort that he puts in, the changes he has effected, the little sacrifices along the way.


People often say, it hasn't been easy for them, and I'm more than thankful that it has been relatively smooth-sailing for us. I always question him on his past relationships because he has maintained that right from the start, they have been marred with quarrels and misunderstandings. And I'm worried, because we rarely quarrel, can we overcome it, when we do?



Baby, I know I've been really grouchy and impatient lately. And I guess I'm not the nicest person to be around with these days. I know you love me, and you've given alot in loving me. I love you too. I hope I really learn to accept our disparities. Let's be in love for a long, long time. :)

-- Post From My PrettyP.

you're the only thing i know, like the back of my hand

I see your face in my mind as I drive away,
Cause none of us thought it was gonna end that way.
People are people,
And sometimes we change our minds.
But its killing me to see you go after all this time.

Mmm mmm mmm
Mmm mmm mmm mmm mmm
Mmm mmm mmm
Mmm mmm mmm mmm mmm

Music starts playin like the end of a sad movie,
Its the kinda ending you dont really wanna see.
Cause its tragedy and itll only bring you down,
Now I dont know what to be without you around.

And we know its never simple,
Never easy.
Never a clean break, noone here to save me.
Youre the only thing I know like the back of my hand,
And I cant,
Breathe,
Without you,
But I have to,
Breathe,
Without you,
But I have to.

Never wanted this, never wanna see you hurt.
Every little bump in the road I tried to swerve.
But people are people,
And sometimes it doesnt work out,
Nothing we say is gonna save us from the fall out.

And we know its never simple,
Never easy.
Never a clean break, no one here to save me.
Youre the only thing I know like the back of my hand,
And I cant,
Breathe,
Without you,
But I have to,
Breathe,
Without you,
But I have to.

Its two a.m.
Feelin' like I just lost a friend.
Hope you know its not easy,
Easy for me.
Its two a.m.
Feelin like I just lost a friend.
Hope you know this aint easy,
Easy for me.

And we know its never simple,
Never easy.
Never a clean break, noone here to save me.

Ohhh

I cant,
Breathe,
Without you,
But I have to,
Breathe,
Without you,
But I have to.

Sorry (oh) Sorry (mmm)
Sorry (eh eh) Sorry (mmm)
Sorry (eh eh) Sorry (mmm)
Sorry

Happy 9号~~~

Happy 9号~~~

(I'm exactly 24 hours late. Hee!)




Thank you baby, for the tumbler. You make me miss you when I drink water at work. And you know, I drink hell alot of water when I'm working. :)

Yes, the eyebags. :(
Haven't been sleeping enough, I know. But for some weird reason, I keep dozing off when I turn in early the night before, and super alert when I obviously don't have enough sleep.


I still can't tell how I'll cope at my new job at the moment. Training keeps getting postponed because everyone's busy, while we sit around and try to fit in. So yes, almost a month into it, and we've not properly commenced yet. But well, I like my new environment enough to say that I think I'll be there for awhile. At least the people there are friendly. Most of them are, anyway. :)


Oh well, time to sleep already. Hope I dream of baby tonight, and every night hereafter.

random #49

Yay! Hong Kong in July! This time round, no one will stop me from going to Disneyland. Baby wants to go too! :)

Mad happy because Tony's offered to monitor air fares for us (since he's also going around the same time), so I have 1 less thing to worry about. Seriously contemplating spending our last night at the Disneyland hotel. Since we're there, might as well enjoy the full Disney experience!

Scrimping and saving for now.


Oh, The Imaginarium of Doctor Parnassus was super nice. Had loads of colourful dreams after watching it yesterday. Stupid boyfriend is infatuated with Lily Cole and her neh neh though (and in my retaliation, I'm going to go gawk at Taylor Lautner's awe-inspiring growth spurt). I want to watch Alice in Wonderland. Not related, I know, but somehow I can't help drawing parallels.

And my Aldo shoes. Nude heels, finally. :) No more shoe shopping till HK though.



Us and our amazing photo-taking rapport.

Had dinner with a cousin, who came over from Malaysia, last weekend. Korean BBQ, mummy's treat. The sam kyup sal was super yummy, lots of fats! Though I still think the Nolboo place at OC was better.

Over dinner, mummy actually commented that she sometimes mistake baby as didi, to my stupid boyfriend's delight. He thrives in opportunities as such, to relish in the fact that he's A FEW MONTHS younger than me. Humph!

I need to sleep already. Love my boyfriend. :) The irritating pi sprung me a surprise, sneaking up behind me at Raffles Place MRT while I was on my way home earlier. Stole a half hour for hugs (yikes! no kisses!!!) before he had to start work. Hehe! Can't wait for the weekend, because this Saturday's mine!

Nights!!

I'm in love with you

Last night was my worst sleep ever, what with baby elbowing and cornering me the entire night. :(

But today, my boyfriend has been most endearing, and now, I'm feeling guilty as hell for getting pek chek at him yesterday. -.-"

Sigh.

I don't want the iPad already. I want the next generation iPhone, can? :)



All I really want is you,
to stand outside my window,

Throwing pebbles, screaming,
“I’m in love with you”

Work and Bf

Sometimes, I get depressed when I think about the kind of life I'm going to have to live with for the next few years of my life. And yesterday, I think I hit an all-time low.

Abc and I have completely opposite sleeping habits, and this, I've come to see, is inevitable, what with his working hours being a near total inversion of mine. And since I started working, we've taken to meeting when I finish work and before his starts. At 6pm on these days, I'd call to find him in bed and he'd struggle to wake, while I drag my feet to meet him, slightly wishing I could snuggle in my blankie.

And yesterday, it suddenly came to me, how tired we both were and for a split second, I considered the lack of necessity this tiredness was for.

It's not that I didn't want to meet him, because that is far from the truth. I really want to meet my bf. I really do miss him whenever he's not around. But I acknowledge my lack of and the consequential need for sleep. I cannot survive like this for long. I cannot stand my falling asleep at work. I don't like this.

And this is the kind of life I have to content myself with for the next few years. I'm scared. I'm scared we won't pull through. At times, I really feel as if we ought to find people who are going through the same phase in their lives. I think it might be better if he had someone who didn't have to wake up early and who would have as much time for him on weekdays as I did when we first got together. Likewise, for me, if my boyfriend works the office hours that I do.

But I don't want to go through the process of falling in love all over again. And I definitely don't want to fall out of love with the Smelly Pi. He has his issues, I have mine. But we've been more than willing to compromise, and to work things out. I don't think I've been this optimistic about a relationship and I don't want this to end.

And yet, how long can this makeshift compromise last, and as far as I can tell, more thorns are going to pop out along the way. :(

I'm scared. And I'm tired. And I'm yawning and wishing for the time to come when I can flop down in bed.


And I'm pissed because the bf doesn't let me snap as many pictures as I want to. What's the use of having a camera when I can't take picture? :(

I have a smashing new toy that I'm not allowed to play with.

And I want the iPad, however ridiculous the name is. I want the iPad.

-- Post From My PrettyP.

new toy!

Yay-ness is my new toy. :)

And next Saturday, I swear I'll clear the mess in my room, because the following weekend, baby's blocked out to spend it with me! :) (Have a slight feeling that he's going to just take over someone else's shift though, and as usual, I'd be encouraging him to take it, as disappointed as I would be.)

first day at work

At the end of my first day at work. I'm exhausted, if not for the first onslaught of supremely dry information, then my severe lack of sleep. I dozed off in classroom training when there was only 2 of us, and with the trainer sitting right next to me! I'm slightly paranoid whether I snored. Zzz. -.-"

As much as it pains me to realize it's going to be awhile before I can wander into dreamland with baby next to me, I must admit that it's probably the only way I would be sleeping early. Sigh. I'm contemplating whether to wear his stinky singlet to sleep later, because I think I'd need to ration the smell over a couple of day. I MISS MY BOYFRIEND! (and its barely 12 hours since I last saw him. Die la!)

The new colleagues seem promising. And I actually met someone I knew, or rather, was somehow acquainted with. Gw's friend. Kinda awkward that I've actually been to her house for, like half an hour of mj on her b'day and I failed to recognize her. Not surprising considering how things turned out between Gw and myself la.

Succumbed to the laziness of growing out my bangs, so I went to cut off the fringe yesterday. That sub-standard and totally patronizing cheena cut hair guy (I'm completely refraining from using the term hairstylist) told me when he was done, '把它绑起来就很美了'. And then I was greeted by guffaws when I came home, from the irritating brother and my ridiculous boyfriend. :(



Very ugly meh? :(

Am going to go wallow in self pity and maybe sniff baby's shirt. I know I sound like a grossed-out psychopath, and yea, I acknowledge that it's super unhealthy the way I'm obsessing over my bf. That said, I've no plans yet to do anything about it, and my disgustingly scheming bf actually encourages me into missing him more. On the surface, he goes like, 'baby 你不可以这样爱我的.' And the next thing you know, he's basking in that affection and clearly enjoying and totally loving the attention. Sigh. My boyfriend.

Let's see if I see him in my dreamland later. I do hope so. He would know what I'd like to do to him after this morning and the perpetuated lethargy the whole day thereafter.

-- Post From My iPhone. WiWi baby rocks. ^^

I WANT

I'm thinking, since I got my deedpoll done. I would really like to get this. But I can't make up my mind which design. And the lavish bitch in me is not contented with the silver ones (silver tarnishes real easily). Oh well, till when I make up my mind.

In the meantime.



Have already emailed the seller. :)

Going to be broke for awhile. Dirt broke, but happy like fuck.

I know. I don't really need it, in fact, it might become like the Holga, which is still sitting in the box Ah Fang gave it to me in. But that's because I don't know how to use it.

I know I'm rationing the meagre last pay from StarHub till when the next pay comes in (in Feb), I know I should wait till then. But you know what, impulse buys are fucking exciting, and I haven't been this hyped up in the longest time. :)

Well, I'm not exactly unhappy, it's just that these days, I feel as though my life is fading into obscurity. Soon, I'll be one of those half-dead corporate world zombies, and baby's planning on getting busy with his friends on my precious weekends.

Truth be told, it scared me a little when my boyfriend suddenly decided that he's going to want to commit his Friday or Saturday nights to his friends, but I guess if it makes him happy, we'll just have to work our way around it. The feeling of being friend-less sucks, I would know that, so I hope he doesn't have to feel that way again. Besides, there's still Sundays and the weekday stay-overs. :)

So there, PLEASE ASK ME OUT. :(

I think I'm friendless, as in, I have nobody to ask out.
Rather, I don't know who to ask out. :(
But, if you think you're my friend, ask me out k? :)

I'm serious.

2010

Happy 2010!! :)

It was a little disappointing trying to catch the fireworks from so far away. Next year, I want to be squeezing with throngs of people to catch them in their full awe-inspiring glory.


Nope, no New Year's resolution because I never keep them anyway.

My 2009 has been filled with blessings in plenty of disguises.
Like drowning my phone 10 days into the year that led to my fantabulous iPhone purchase. Still loving it, totally.
Like losing my job, finding the worst ever job and eventually nabbing something that will be paying reasonably well. :)
Like devastatingly breaking the heart of him who loved me more than anyone ever had, only to find my happy, love pill hidden elsewhere. :)


Life has never been so promising, and we're so going to continue our streak of happiness, I'm not even going to wish for it.

2010 will be a blast!